Thoughts

Thoughts

Hello~~

Back from Korea...

Quite long ago le...haha...

Sorry, now then blog...

getting super lazy..

can't even stand myself also...

Anyway,

really bought lots of stuff from Korea..

my daddy really going to go broke..

Korea stuff are much much more ex than Singapore stuff..

seriously, if you were to compare the price with S'pore,

you WILL NEVER want to buy the product le..

other than the price issue,

took lots of pictures too~~

I may upload some in time to come..

I won't say I WILL,

cause I know I may not post in the end....

so, just leave it there first...haha..

the real intention of me blogging right now

is surprisingly not bout Korea trip..

As the title says,

THOUGHTS.

I have lots of thoughts now...

really want to write them out

so I will feel better...

A lot of ppl are already wondering why

I keep bloging negative stuff about life..

I also dunno why..

But blogging seems to be the only way.

Even though I know ppl will be reading my blog,

I still carry on...

These are stuff I can NEVER say out face to face..

as some may know,

I'm an extreme Introvert.

I have no confidence in myself, no courage at all.

Blogging seems to help me a bit...

Some ppl may also realise I talk better on msn

or on words...

I really can't do much verbally....

I only listen...

I'm not good at words either.....

I sometimes stammer when I talk...

due to excitment I guess...

Maybe I shouldn't have joined ISAN in the first place..

I shouldn't have known all those ppl also....

Sometimes I really feel left out..

I hate that.

But sometimes really can't help it also...

I give up too easily...

I can't seem to get anything done.

I really envy some ppl...

they can just communicate so well with a 'snap'

I can't.

Really felt like crying today..

the feeling is coming back again.

Kept pushing my tears back..

kept calling myself an idiot..

But what to do?

Life still goes on...

even without me.

There are many things in life that I long for,

but I know the more I want them,

the more they become apart from me.

God has his ways of controlling my life...

I can never go against it..

he has created me like this..

I'm really thankful for it.

No matter how much I complain,

I will still thank him for making me.

Complaining does not help much either.

Some things in life are really untouchable,

you know its untouchable,

but you can't help it but to go and disturb it.

In the end everything turns out worst than before.

Really, let nature takes its course.

If God want me to cry,

I'll cry..

Still got many things going through my mind.

Not so good pening them down also.

Maybe I should go open up another blog.

Private one..

where I can write whatever I want....

I don't know whether to call myself

lucky or unlucky to have known you guys.