What to do?

What to do?

ok. finally I blogged after dunno how many weeks.

recently, there has been WAY too much that happened.

make me no mood to blog also.

as usual, have been really negative for the past weeks.

never seem to get anything done when Im down.

I feel like an alien.

Like I never notice how the world around me has changed so much.

I'm not in secondary school anymore.

The fact I have to face is that,

I'm already a Poly student,

and have been one 1.5 yrs ago.

Nothing is like secondary school times.

Everyone is growing up.

Everyone have developed many different thinkings.

But I still feel I'm stuck at point zero.

Until now then I realise,

many things are no as simple as it is anymore.

Some problems we have to go through before we actually mature up.

obstacles that I have to overcome everyday.

The only way to do it,

is to live one day at a time.

Thinking ahead or back will not help me at all.

Focusing myself on the day that Im at now

will get rid of all thoughts for the past few days

will get rid of thoughts I have for the future.

What for think so much?

When you know whatever you long for

will never come through?

When you know your friends are carrying burdens

and you can't help them at all?

When you have got problems yourself

but wouldn't want to face them?

I've also come to realise

I actually don't know some of my friends at all.

What to do?

What not to do?

Nobody can tell you all this.

Only you can take control of things you wanna do and nt do.

Only you can control whether to fall sick or not.

Only you can control what you think and act.

Life is like that bah.

You need to control your own destiny.

People can affect your thinking,

but ultimately, you have to make your own decisions.

If this carries on,

I don't know how long I can hold on.