Heart Flutter Experience

Heart Flutter Experience

People I'm back!!

Electronically.haha!

It's been awhile since I posted

GOOD stuff of my life.

So here is one GOOD experience!

ENJOY~!

(coz I did!!)

Today had classes in the morning,

so went to school as usual.

Everything was kind of boring,

I thought it would be the normal lectures,

then followed by teacher talking cock.

Who knows,

today got presentation,

and its 1 by 1 presentation.

EACH of us was to talk about a personal

exp we have prepared, in front of the class.

Now you would think that's ok,

considering the fact that a NORMAL class

have about 20++ ppl.

Well, NOT!

The class was 60+ strong!!

Imagine standing in front and speaking to these ppl,

more than half the class

you never talked and never knew their names.

Not encouraging at all.

Anyway, I wasn't quite prepared mentally

although I know what to present.

So one by one,

names were called out BY THE TEACHER.

Each of us went up and presented a 3-min talk.

The TEACHER called out the names based on

the attendance signed for today.

I didn't sign the attendance when I came in,

so I know my name wun be called.

But that's not the point.

After about 1++hr of self-presentations,

me and my friend went out of class

for our own toilet break.

Then when we came back,

of course ppl were still presenting.

Then I realised,

that the voice of the 'teacher'

calling out the names became very manly.

So i turned behind and looked,

(i was in the 2nd row from the front,

the teacher was right at the back row.)

This guy was calling out names instead.

I took a closer look,

first impression was: not Asian.

Then 2nd was: since when was he in this class?

I'm serious, really haven't seen him before in this class,

and its like already 1 mth 1 week le.

So I tot he was new,

and a really fresh face.

Coz there were only 3 caucasians in the class,

and they are all ladies.

He is definitely fresh.

Anyway, he started to call names on the teacher's behalf,

and this time, they have collected

the Std card from those going to present,

so its easier to call rather than looking at the attendance.

Coz my friend and I missed out 'so much'

during our toilet break,

so she quickly passed our cards to teacher.

So I got nervous,

coz I'm definitely going to present today.

'thought can push too nxt week if over-time'

Anyway, back to main point.

After the guy calls out the name,

and once the person is out in front presenting,

he will walk to the person's seat

and place the std card on the table.

he will PERSONALLY walk lor!!

Anyway, I started thinking,

so when I present,

he will come to my seat as well~!

Haha.. that got me excited for no reason.

So whenever ppl were going up to present,

I will watch him walk around.

Then my friend told me

the guy was CUTE.

I TOTALLY AGREE!!!

So he called my name,

( I forgot how he calls it!)

so i went up to present,

but i knew he was going to come up to my seat,

so I turned back and look,

and we made eye contact!

He gestured that my card was in his hands,

and it looked like he wanted to give me the card.

But for some apparent reason,

I turned, and walked to e front,

WITHOUT taking the card or whatsoever.

I kind of regretted once I was up there,

coz i feel so bad,

like acknowledging him and the card,

but i paid no attention.

Bad right?!

Then throughout the presentation ar,

I kept looking around the class to find focus points,

so my eyes wun wander around the 60++ ppl.

I found this other guy and his area as 1 focus point,

coz i know that guy will pay attention type.

Then my eyes naturally went all the way to the back row

and found the 'calling names' guy.

And guess what?!

He was looking at me also!!

Meaning I got his attention as well!

And hor, something wrong with my eyes,

i focused on him for quite awhile,

till my mind was blank I didn't know what's my nxt line.

So i looked away,

and got my sentences back,

then I kept focusing on those 2 guys.

The fact that both of them were paying attention to me

kind of scared me off,

so i turned to the teacher instead for the rest of my talk.

My eyes were shifting between the 2 spots lor!

Damn scary.

I didn't even pay attention to ppl sitting in front.

I felt my face burning the more I talked,

so I kept looking away,

coz i thought my face was BRIGHT RED.

But after the talk,

i asked my friend,

she said it wasn't red at all.

So I was quite surprised.

Coz my face ALWAYS burn when I talk

in front of big crowds.

Anyway thats not the point.

My point is, the guy.

Truthfully,

I don't think he is VERY good-looking or CUTE.

I've never seen him smile yet,

even when we had eye-contact just now.

Basically his face was quite expression-less.

But somehow,

you can tell his expression through his eyes.

He really has good eyes.haha!

His eyes have that innocent look in them,

and it sort of brings out his charm.

He is really that kind of 'guy next door',

with an innocent look and feel.

But its probably the eyes that made me

take alot of 2nd and 3rd looks at him.

Eye contact is really impt to me,

when you talk to me,

you have to look at me and nt elsewhere.

If not, it gives me the feeling that

you dun wan to talk to me.

And if I look elsewhere,

likewise too.

So for a guy to have good eyes,

and make loads of eye contacts,

I will give him my attention.

Not the flirty way,

but the sincerity way.

But of course there will be guys

whereby their eye contact is too strong

so i tend to look away from them.haha.

Anyway I'm able to blog about him here,

coz I know we will never know each other,

so he wun drop by here and see this post.

Anyway didn't get his name,

but from what i heard from the teacher,

she was like,

'Can you pronounce the name properly, "Andre".'

(front part may be different,

but the impt thing is the name at the back)

I dunno how to spell,

but think the french way of saying 'Andre'.

I very thick-skinned right?

Haha.. what to do~~!

Only eye candies can motivate me to come school!

END OF STORY!

haha.. lame right?!

Frequent Bad Days

Frequent Bad Days

Been experiencing bad days recently,

basically I start swearing and cursing

the infamous 4 letter word.

Anyway,

shall start on a lighter note first.

My london cousin came into SG

with his friends,

but they all left b4 him,

coz he wanted to stay in SG for a few more days.

His dad called my dad,

who called my mum

and told her that he is coming tat night.

My whole family was shocked lar!

Normally, whoever staying at our place

will tell us in advance so we can prepare.

anyway he arrived that nite (last wednesday)

and we all thought tat he grew darker and skinner.

a funny thing bout him is,

he is suppose to settle his tickets asap,

but he woke up late on thurs,

went out and watched WANTED.

he came back and say there was some problem.

the nxt day he went out again,

and watched RED CLIFF.

THAT is the funny part.

he say he couldn't get any other timeslots,

so he just watched anything.

RED CLIFF is in chinese rite?!

haha.. he is so funny.

he left on sat nite,

and all he did was watch 2 movies,

go settle his ticket problem,

go funan IT mall on sat wif my dad n bro,

and left tat night.

now i know why my aunt say

she is always worried for my uncle and my cousin.

everytime they travel,

its my aunt who will take care

of those nitty gritty stuff.

those 2 males will FORGET stuff.

once my uncle n my cousin came over

to stay a few days, w/o my aunt.

my uncle said that they almost forgot some stuff

even when at the airport!

I guess they are not xi xin enough,

only my aunt will take note,

so they leave it to her to take care.

so if nobody remind them on things,

they will forget.

cute family rite?!

ok.nxt topic.

recently, all the buses i take

all seem to come VERY non-frequent.

I had to wait like 20-30mins for 1 to come.

what does that mean?

I will be late for classes.

damn f**k rite?

I kept swearing lar.

When you see ppl come after you

and leaving on a bus b4 you,

and when u are the only one left at the bus stop,

you will want to mutter out something rite?

I kept going f**k, f**k...

afterall, I'M ALONE!

getting so pissed now.

actually today driving not bad de,

met the driver that got my motivation back,

for the 2nd time today.

And guess what?

I did so much better today.

I was quite happy bout it,

and him being my instructor.

And, so funny,

think he took naps

whenever the car not moving.

Probably after heavy lunch,

so will want to fall asleep.

Everytime i stop at traffic light,

I look at the mirror and can see his head

bobbing left n right,

you know like you wan control ur head

from 'bouncing' when u fall asleep?

so funny lar,

i will look e other side and laugh silently.

But strange,

everytime we start moving,

he will be awake and start to instruct.

cute right?

after the driving,

i was waiting for the bus as usual,

but it took me almost 30mins to get onto it.

Got one double deck bus drove in,

but he has got no signs showing wat bus it is,

BUT! there were ppl on board!

like only 1/3 of the bus is full lar!

the bus also lets ppl alight also.

I got a feeling its my bus,

but wat to do,

it does not want to let ppl board.

after that,

my bus finally came,

but it was single decked and FULL.

almost couldn't get onto the bus lor!

Then I hear the driver talking

to the control centre I think,

saying he can't handle the load,

his bus is single-decked etc.

So that further cfmed that

the double-decked bus with no numbers

might be my bus afterall.

So sick rite?!

Why cant let ppl alight the freaking bus?!

I see ppl board n alight from their bus,

but mine so long den turn up.

while waiting i got an unknown call.

I answered, and realised its from JCU.

Apparently,

the lady claim she can't find my attendance for last sem.

I was thinking in my mind,

"Duh, I just started, how to have

attendance in last sem?!"

I told her I was new,

and its my FIRST semester.

She replied with 'oh is it?

coz i cant find any records.'

She like so shocked lar.

What am I suppose to do?!

'oh i lied! I did study last sem,

erm, does a dream count?

I dreamt of studying there last sem u know?

Maybe thats why no attendance. SORRY!'

I kept repeating im new, im new!

But anyway she said the

Associate Dean wants to meet me tml.

Know what all this means?!

THEY DONT EVEN KNOW

IF THEIR STUDENTS ARE NEW OR NOT.

F**KING SYSTEM RIGHT?!

I mean, HELLO!

IS IT THAT HARD TO SEPARATE

THE NEW AND THE OLD?!

IF YOU HAVE MY HP NO.,

YOU CAN DOUBLE CHECK MY INFO

AND REALISE I JUST

GRADUATED FROM NP RIGHT?!

YOU CALL PPL JUST COZ YOU CANT FIND ANY RECORDS.

DOES IT EVEN OCCUR TO YOU THAT

NO ATTENDANCE MAY MEAN

I NEVER ENROLLED YET?!

FUCK THEM LAR.

PLEASE PPL!

DON'T DON'T DON'T DON'T

EVER ENROL IN JCU.

I MADE A BAD CHOICE,

AND I DON'T WANT TO

RECOMMEND TO ANYONE.

They say they will improve,

but I doubt that will happen anytime soon.

haiz.lucky I only need to study 1 yr!

About 11 more mths and I'm free~!

School sucks.

Sucky Life

Sucky Life

I lead a sucky life.

I hate school,

and I hate work too.

What am I going to do with my life?!

Its been 2 weeks since I first started.

1st week was alright,

alot of introductions.

I thought I would do fine.

Considering I had NO friends,

or NO one I knew from before.

I was in it ALONE.

As much as I hate it,

I needed to find friends.

NEW friends.

It really sucks at times,

coz there are so many ppl you dun know,

and its so damn hard to break

into their circle of clique.

Because Im new,

and i have half exemptions,

most of my classmates are seniors to me.

Im actually taking lvl 3 subjects,

coz of all those exemptions.

so definitely,

those who do not have exemptions,

start at Lvl 1.

When they reach lvl 3,

they are like seniors already.

AND they have their OWN circle of friends.

Having to break into them

is difficult enough.

I have different classes for every of my 4 subjects.

Meaning, my classmates are NOT fixed.

I may have 2 or 3 subjects in common with some of them,

but the rest are like 'meet-one-time'.

Its even harder to make friends.

I'd probably have different ppl in my class nxt sem lor!

So sad..haiz.

Finding lunch partner also got difficulty.

lucky I only need to find once per week.

At least now got yf can go luch with.

But when I move to new campus?

Sniff.. who to find?!

Or maybe can ask mummy prepare food for me~

All I can say is,

DUN EVER STUDY IN AN INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL!

It may sound interesting,

but PLS!

DONT!

Its sometimes hard to understand them,

and they understanding you!

Got very little topics to talk about also.

AND!

They always have their own

'same-country' ppl as good friends,

where they blast away with their own language.

Even singapore students also have their own circle.

and further more,

JCU sucks.

I talk so negatively bout my sch,

but what to do?

Its that bad lor!

I must make sure I pass everything

so can get my degree in 1 yr

and get the HELL out of there.

Dun even think bout getting masters ar!

Will faint half-way.

seriously dunno wat to update le.

Frequent Blogger?

Frequent Blogger?

Ok.. Im starting a trend of

only blogging once per month.

Thats not good rite?

I'm starting my JCU on June 30th.

Which is 1 week's time!!

Tats fast!

But I don't want to start yet!

I haven't enjoyed enough yet!!

New school with new people

bring new challenges.

Challenges as simple as finding a friend,

and difficult to passing exams.

1 year can be short or long to anyone.

Too me,

it's a little short to find true friends,

and short because after i grad nxt yr,

I HAVE to find job le.

SIAN!

I want to avoid working as much as possible,

but its so damn hard.

I mean, I want to work!

But find myself uncomfortable with

anything I work.

I know I have to step into the workforce

sooner or later,

but just don't want to right now.

I still want to study~~

Anyway,

recently got ALOT of SuJu videos

to download...

I mean, FINALLY!

I waited so long for their SUBBED videos,

I got fed up and totally ditched SuJu sites

for almost a week.

But when I realise suddenly ppl started

to upload subbed videos,

I realised I had ALOT to catch up with.

Especially on soompi!

I had to read like 50+pages

from where i stopped e other time!

And I just finished reading them.

It's hard to read ALL 50+pgs at once,

so i split between these few days.

More ppl are subbing SHINee videos too.

Thats a good sign. For now.

Once their promo ends,

they mite not surface for awhile,

so thats when ppl start loosing interest in them,

therefore loosing interest to SUB.

Korean is not that difficult to understand,

just that I dun have that porper training.

I can read the korean words,

but I won't understand what I'm reading.

Sometimes I will,

but most of the time I won't.

I want to learn korean too!

But now that my school is starting soon,

and that I'm learning driving now as well,

do I have the time to learn something else?!

Oh, watched The Incredible Hulk last wednesday

and Kung Fu Panda last friday with the same person.

No $$ for guessing whp tat person is!

Anyway, these few weeks got good movies

to watch and look out for.

I want to watch GET SMART!

Somehow I find THE ROCK's movie nice.

Is either his appeal in those movies,

or I really like him alot.

I don't think its the 2nd choice though.haha.

His acting really is not bad.

I want to watch WANTED also!

The trailer we watched before The Incredible Hulk

was damn fascinating lar!

So much action and close-calls.haha.

Come and find me if you want watch WANTED!

Hellboy 2 coming out also,

but I'm not as interested to watch it as WANTED.

Guess thats bout it I can remember.

see ya all~~

wherever I meet you all lar! haha.