18 more weeks

18 more weeks

18 more weeks and with tonnes of work.

Though the weeks are getting lesser and lesser,

I found that my motivation becomes lower too.

I thought should be the other way round?

Now I finally understand why ppl always say

'The Monday Blues'

The weekends pass especially quick,

while monday is always the slowest to pass.

Why like that?!

I thought I will be able to hold on for 22 weeks,

I thought that if I worked hard,

the time will pass faster.

I thought that if I put my whole mind into it,

I will not have much problems.

BUT...

my thoughts still want to come back and haunt me.

Been thinking quite alot lately,

any kind of thoughts you can think of.

Went out with evon n teng last sunday,

met up with hh last friday,

who am I going to meet up with next?

Thinking about this make me feel so...sad.

It's like...we all really need to make that effort

to take out time to just meet up.

Friends are people who will be there when you need them,

they are the ones to comfort you,

there to laugh with you,

there to cry together with you,

there to complain about anything with you.

I really cannot do without these friends.

Life would be boring.

Even more boring without SJ.

Sometimes, certain people just appear in my mind

out of nowhere and distrupt my thoughts.

Does that mean I long to see them?

Does that mean we should meet up,

so our friendship won't just die away?

It's hard.

Hard to see that some people

can work together in the same company,

at the same time.

You always see them together in their own clique,

happy chatting away just like sch times.

Whereas people like me?

Can only sit aside and watch them laugh.

Watch them talk about things you don't understand,

see how they glue to each other like nobody's business.

It's hard.

Hard to fight this fight on my own.

All I need is more care,

and feel that I have friends.

I HATE being left out.

The more I think about it,

the more I dread going to work.

What is the point of having so many classmates

working together in the same company,

when almost none of them are your close friends?