I call this post random because I came across my own blog on my own Twitter, and saw that the last post was made one and a half years ago? Also a distraction as, well I truly got distracted.
A hopefully short one, can't stand that things are not updated. A few changes, most remain the same.
Biggest change I can think of is EXO. The last post was made in Oct 2012, which was about a month later I went for SM Town concert? They were on stage but I didn't pay too much attention then. My focus were on the other artists like Super Junior and Shinee. Suddenly less than a year later it went full-blown. Saw them perform Wolf on Music Bank (one of the re-runs) and out of curiosity youtubed about them. Basically they have taken over my life until now.
Another big change is, not sure when it started, but have also hooked myself onto gaming youtubers. To be exact, I subscribe to a few people who produce videos of them playing games. Most of them have videos uploaded every day, so my nights are sometimes taken up having to watch their videos. Again for some reason I enjoy watching people play more so than playing on my own. Minecraft is a big source of their videos, since its so expandable there seems to be endless stuff you can do on Minecraft. Really enjoy watching them explore and come up with ideas to make their videos more fun to watch.
A very recent change - painted 2 sides of my room a sky blue color, which means all the old posters and blu-tac stain marks are gone! Obviously I ain't one to leave my new walls blue and empty, so have started acquiring posters even before the walls got painted. Have since completed 80% covering 1 wall, going to finish the project of covering 90% and making use of 2nd wall for new posters/pictures. Instagram it soon! (Oh yeah, my Instagram account is the other new thing too.)
The rest pretty much stay the same. Again, want to keep this short as I'm here only randomly distracted. Sums up my attention span really.
Saturday, March 15, 2014
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
2 Years
2 Years. It's been almost 2 years since I last posted here. I've since lost the background picture and almost forgot my password. 2 years on...
Many things have changed in my life. Sadly I'm still single, but doesn't matter. I've started to earn money, been in society for 18 months now. Same job, slight pay rise and still doing the same things. It's become a routine there. Sometimes you hate it, sometimes you enjoy it. At least my CPF is slowly growing. Right, won't talk anymore about work.
Gadget. Most recent changes are that I got a new laptop! Daddy paid for it as usual. So I'm blogging from my new laptop. My old laptop is still functioning, so I can transfer files to the new one. Haven't really gotten to doing it yet. Another gadget change is my Samsung Galaxy S2, considered old though. Still ever faithful to it.
Music. Have also started to listen to radio 913 (or HOT FM) since I started working. My playlists have improved ever since too. I now listen to music everyday without fail. Even on weekends. Sometimes I feel kind of empty without music. English songs mainly though. My latest crave? Nicki Minaj - Va Va Voom. Hilariously, the concerts I've been to are all korean. Super Show 3: 29-30 Jan 2011. Been to both days. SHINee World : 10 Sep 2011. Super Show 4: 19 Feb 2012. Next one - SMTown Live World Tour III: 23 Nov 2012. Bring it on!
Cosmetics. Have also since been addicted to make-up. Did already use them 2 years ago, but maybe not as often as now. I actually enjoy doing make-up, which has to be a good thing. Instead of thinking about it as wasting time, think of it as art on face. Ok, maybe not that arty but I've really increased my make-up stock in these past 2 years. Which leads to the next paragraph.
Household. Changes in my room and house are also in order. I (& daddy) purchased the ALEX 9-drawer set from IKEA for my make-up and nail polish storage. Love it so much. Still got plenty of space to add my make-up collection. This didn't happen in my house but bro has also finished his NS early this Feb. Already in University, so fast, so smart. Living room has the biggest change: New TV (daddy screwed the old one with baby wipes), new TV cabinet/table for all the cable tvs, dvd player, speakers and a PS3. Oh, not to forget a gigantic freezer in the living room as well. So out of place. At least the fish tank hasn't change - still empty.
Travelling. Love travelling. From Oct 2010, I've since been to KL, Phuket, JB, Taipei, & JB in that order. I guess I'm somewhat fortunate. Have also booked a Taiwan trip later in Dec. Great way to round up the year. Can't wait!
Sports. How can I forget about it?! Arsenal still have my deepest support. Frustrating at times, few tears shed, but ultimately I'm hooked. Gooner for life! Cricket - first came across it due to the hype over The Ashes test series between England & Australia in 2010-2011 . In short, I've grown a British interest in their sports therefore am now supporting the England cricket team. Also frustrating at times. Basketball - safe to say I started to support the team that won the NBA title that year. Lakers! Rugby - 2011 World Cup. Enough said. The All Blacks. The mighty All Blacks. The team so far to NOT have frustrated me. Still on a winning streak since winning the World Cup. Mighty indeed. Tennis - Still Rafa! But has been rather quiet and injured this past 2 years. Really hoping to see him at his best again! Vamos Rafa! Olympics 2012. Wow. London made it possible. Made everything magical and made my time watching it so much memorable. The time difference was a little annoying but hey I'm not complaining! Lastly, not really a sport I'm actually interested but have watched the very recent Ryder Cup. That's golf by the way. Tell me again why I'm such a sports junkie. (This is one hell of a paragraph.)
Shopping. Been less likely to shop outside than online. The price is one huge factor, always never seem to be firm and buy things. Yet I can freely purchase goods online. Don't even know how they look like of feel on me, still buy. Well at least it's one-sided right? Having to spend the money I earn is somewhat satisfying. I can actually buy stuff for myself without having to worry I'll have none left in my bank. It's growing!
Friends. To be fair, once you've been with certain friends for that long, change is minimal in terms of our friendships. As strong as ever, even if we do meet up less often. Work and studies take up a bulk of our time, not to mention the odd few with boyfriends. That doesn't change anything. I love my friends dearly, need them more than I think I do. Friendship is easy to strike up, hard to maintain. We all grow old together. So Jia You my dear friends!
Games. Not much of a gaming person myself, but I enjoy watching others play. I enjoy my time laughing and commenting beside bro while he plays the PS3. Any game, so long as his friends are not there, I'll somehow find time to sit and laugh. Fun times. PS3 is rotting for now, my dear bro. On the other hand, been addicted to some iPad games. Become somewhat of a routine as well.
Health. I guess not much difference. Probably gained a few kilo. Less exercise? Maybe I need to change that for the better. Becoming couch potato on weekends. Watching all the sports in't helping me get into sports myself. Maybe need to visit a dentist too. Don't want to go into details the last time I've been to one. Eat more fruits? Dad's naggy motto almost everyday. He is hooked on fruits. All kinds. 2-3 different ones at a time. After every dinner. Yet he's currently sick. Haha.
Meant for this post to be short but how is it possible?
Many things have changed in my life. Sadly I'm still single, but doesn't matter. I've started to earn money, been in society for 18 months now. Same job, slight pay rise and still doing the same things. It's become a routine there. Sometimes you hate it, sometimes you enjoy it. At least my CPF is slowly growing. Right, won't talk anymore about work.
Gadget. Most recent changes are that I got a new laptop! Daddy paid for it as usual. So I'm blogging from my new laptop. My old laptop is still functioning, so I can transfer files to the new one. Haven't really gotten to doing it yet. Another gadget change is my Samsung Galaxy S2, considered old though. Still ever faithful to it.
Music. Have also started to listen to radio 913 (or HOT FM) since I started working. My playlists have improved ever since too. I now listen to music everyday without fail. Even on weekends. Sometimes I feel kind of empty without music. English songs mainly though. My latest crave? Nicki Minaj - Va Va Voom. Hilariously, the concerts I've been to are all korean. Super Show 3: 29-30 Jan 2011. Been to both days. SHINee World : 10 Sep 2011. Super Show 4: 19 Feb 2012. Next one - SMTown Live World Tour III: 23 Nov 2012. Bring it on!
Cosmetics. Have also since been addicted to make-up. Did already use them 2 years ago, but maybe not as often as now. I actually enjoy doing make-up, which has to be a good thing. Instead of thinking about it as wasting time, think of it as art on face. Ok, maybe not that arty but I've really increased my make-up stock in these past 2 years. Which leads to the next paragraph.
Household. Changes in my room and house are also in order. I (& daddy) purchased the ALEX 9-drawer set from IKEA for my make-up and nail polish storage. Love it so much. Still got plenty of space to add my make-up collection. This didn't happen in my house but bro has also finished his NS early this Feb. Already in University, so fast, so smart. Living room has the biggest change: New TV (daddy screwed the old one with baby wipes), new TV cabinet/table for all the cable tvs, dvd player, speakers and a PS3. Oh, not to forget a gigantic freezer in the living room as well. So out of place. At least the fish tank hasn't change - still empty.
Travelling. Love travelling. From Oct 2010, I've since been to KL, Phuket, JB, Taipei, & JB in that order. I guess I'm somewhat fortunate. Have also booked a Taiwan trip later in Dec. Great way to round up the year. Can't wait!
Sports. How can I forget about it?! Arsenal still have my deepest support. Frustrating at times, few tears shed, but ultimately I'm hooked. Gooner for life! Cricket - first came across it due to the hype over The Ashes test series between England & Australia in 2010-2011 . In short, I've grown a British interest in their sports therefore am now supporting the England cricket team. Also frustrating at times. Basketball - safe to say I started to support the team that won the NBA title that year. Lakers! Rugby - 2011 World Cup. Enough said. The All Blacks. The mighty All Blacks. The team so far to NOT have frustrated me. Still on a winning streak since winning the World Cup. Mighty indeed. Tennis - Still Rafa! But has been rather quiet and injured this past 2 years. Really hoping to see him at his best again! Vamos Rafa! Olympics 2012. Wow. London made it possible. Made everything magical and made my time watching it so much memorable. The time difference was a little annoying but hey I'm not complaining! Lastly, not really a sport I'm actually interested but have watched the very recent Ryder Cup. That's golf by the way. Tell me again why I'm such a sports junkie. (This is one hell of a paragraph.)
Shopping. Been less likely to shop outside than online. The price is one huge factor, always never seem to be firm and buy things. Yet I can freely purchase goods online. Don't even know how they look like of feel on me, still buy. Well at least it's one-sided right? Having to spend the money I earn is somewhat satisfying. I can actually buy stuff for myself without having to worry I'll have none left in my bank. It's growing!
Friends. To be fair, once you've been with certain friends for that long, change is minimal in terms of our friendships. As strong as ever, even if we do meet up less often. Work and studies take up a bulk of our time, not to mention the odd few with boyfriends. That doesn't change anything. I love my friends dearly, need them more than I think I do. Friendship is easy to strike up, hard to maintain. We all grow old together. So Jia You my dear friends!
Games. Not much of a gaming person myself, but I enjoy watching others play. I enjoy my time laughing and commenting beside bro while he plays the PS3. Any game, so long as his friends are not there, I'll somehow find time to sit and laugh. Fun times. PS3 is rotting for now, my dear bro. On the other hand, been addicted to some iPad games. Become somewhat of a routine as well.
Health. I guess not much difference. Probably gained a few kilo. Less exercise? Maybe I need to change that for the better. Becoming couch potato on weekends. Watching all the sports in't helping me get into sports myself. Maybe need to visit a dentist too. Don't want to go into details the last time I've been to one. Eat more fruits? Dad's naggy motto almost everyday. He is hooked on fruits. All kinds. 2-3 different ones at a time. After every dinner. Yet he's currently sick. Haha.
Meant for this post to be short but how is it possible?
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Broken Arrow
Broken Arrow. Really like the lyrics of this song. Sung by Pixie Lott, the first time I heard it on radio, I loved the tune. There was a certain part of the song - the starting part of the chorus - that I really love. I didn't get the lyrics until I went to check it out. The lyrics are easy to understand and has meaning to it. Easy to understand lyrics just make the whole song easier to follow. The lyrics as follow:
What do you do when you're stuck,
Because the one that you love,
Has pushed you away,
And you can't deal with the pain,
And now you're trying to fix me,
Mend what he did,
I'll find the piece that I'm missing,
But I still miss him,
I miss him, I'm missing him,
Oh I miss him, I miss him, I'm missng him
And you're sitting in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.
He's the thorn in my flesh
That I can't take out
He's stealing my breath
When you're around,
And now you're trying to convince me,
He wasn't worth it,
But you can't complete me,
He's the part that is missing,
I miss him, I'm missing him,
Oh I miss him I miss him, I'm missing him,
And you're sitting in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.
What do you do
When your hearts in two places?
You feel great but you're torn inside.
You feel love but you just can't embrace it,
When you found the right one at the wrong time.
And you're sitting in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.
Easy to understand right? Haha. You get dumped but you still love your ex-bf. Then another guy comes in and do everything for you, but you still can't forget about your ex-bf. There's still that lingering feeling for him, and you know this guy in front of you loves you wholeheartedly. One sentence sums up the whole song - "When you found the right one at the wrong time."
Sweet isn't it? A tinge of sadness yet blissfulness. I love it!
What do you do when you're stuck,
Because the one that you love,
Has pushed you away,
And you can't deal with the pain,
And now you're trying to fix me,
Mend what he did,
I'll find the piece that I'm missing,
But I still miss him,
I miss him, I'm missing him,
Oh I miss him, I miss him, I'm missng him
And you're sitting in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.
He's the thorn in my flesh
That I can't take out
He's stealing my breath
When you're around,
And now you're trying to convince me,
He wasn't worth it,
But you can't complete me,
He's the part that is missing,
I miss him, I'm missing him,
Oh I miss him I miss him, I'm missing him,
And you're sitting in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.
What do you do
When your hearts in two places?
You feel great but you're torn inside.
You feel love but you just can't embrace it,
When you found the right one at the wrong time.
And you're sitting in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.
Easy to understand right? Haha. You get dumped but you still love your ex-bf. Then another guy comes in and do everything for you, but you still can't forget about your ex-bf. There's still that lingering feeling for him, and you know this guy in front of you loves you wholeheartedly. One sentence sums up the whole song - "When you found the right one at the wrong time."
Sweet isn't it? A tinge of sadness yet blissfulness. I love it!
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Obsession
I'm back! Got nothing much to do so I'm posting again. Going out later, which means I have to start planning what time to shower etc so I won't be late.
Going to Kbox with my mates! Haha... been a while I last saw them, well at least 1 of them. Haha... The other lives down the road. We meet every month to pass items. Haha. Anyway, meeting at 7pm, which means I need to start shower at 5+, then take quick dinner, then wear clothes/put make-up. I don't even know why I'm blogging this. Am so bored.
It's kpop time people! Heard that there are many new kpop songs in kbox, so definitely going to check it out and sing to my heart's content. Ok, I've got no juice now. Signing out~
Going to Kbox with my mates! Haha... been a while I last saw them, well at least 1 of them. Haha... The other lives down the road. We meet every month to pass items. Haha. Anyway, meeting at 7pm, which means I need to start shower at 5+, then take quick dinner, then wear clothes/put make-up. I don't even know why I'm blogging this. Am so bored.
It's kpop time people! Heard that there are many new kpop songs in kbox, so definitely going to check it out and sing to my heart's content. Ok, I've got no juice now. Signing out~
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
100 Reasons
Been inspired to list the 100 hundred reasons I have to live my life to the fullest. Here goes, in no particular order, just things that come into mind straight away.
1. Super Junior
2. SHINee
3. Arsenal
4. Friends
5. Family
6. Traveling
7. Watch a tennis match Live
8. Car
9. House
10. Nice clothes
11. Nice shoes
12. Rings
13. Snow
14. Korean drama shows
15. Jeffrey Lightfoot
16. Emirates Stadium
17. Money
18. Twitter
19. Facebook
20. Blogging
21. Rain
22. Hot sunny day
23. Andrey Arshavin
24. Trophies
25. Football
26. Microsoft Excel
27. Lilo & Stitch mug
28. Twisties
29. Laptop
30. Handphone
31. iPod
32. Lip Gloss
33. Roses
34. Blue
35. Parent's Nagging
36. Bro's NS hair & specs
37. Ugly hair
38. Mio Stadium
39. Tudou
40. Headphones
41. Yami Yogurt
42. Hokkien Mee
43. Sunday church
44. Family Guy
45. Doctor Who
46. 9 Tail Fox
47. Linkin Park
48. Southpaw people
49. 6 o'clock
50. TweetDeck
51. Ears
52. Eyes
53. Nose
54. Mouth
55. We Got Married
56. Star King
57. Min Woo
58. Skysports News
59. Podcasts
60. Kids
61. Music
62. Movies
63. Locnville
64. Song "Cooler Than Me"
65. Prince Harry
66. Eddie Cahill
67. Taylor Lautner
68. Crayfish
69. Egg
70. IKEA meatballs
71. Body scars
72. Sweat
73. Sweets
74. Remote Controls
75. Yahoo TW Bid shops
76. Dress Heavenly
77. Green Top
78. Leg massage machine
79. Sneezing
80. Yawning
81. Laughter
82. Crying
83. F1
84. Bugatti Veyron
85. Audi R8
86. Wedding Gowns
87. Autographs
88. World Cup
89. LA Lakers
90. Paint
91. LiveScoreHunter
92. Rafael Nadal
93. Spanish Armada
94. PS3
95. Football magazines
96. Radio
97. Fan
98. Contact lenses
99. Water
100. Me
There... they may be little or dumb to you, but to me, they mean the world. Literally stuff that comes to mind as I typed this... so fun.
1. Super Junior
2. SHINee
3. Arsenal
4. Friends
5. Family
6. Traveling
7. Watch a tennis match Live
8. Car
9. House
10. Nice clothes
11. Nice shoes
12. Rings
13. Snow
14. Korean drama shows
15. Jeffrey Lightfoot
16. Emirates Stadium
17. Money
18. Twitter
19. Facebook
20. Blogging
21. Rain
22. Hot sunny day
23. Andrey Arshavin
24. Trophies
25. Football
26. Microsoft Excel
27. Lilo & Stitch mug
28. Twisties
29. Laptop
30. Handphone
31. iPod
32. Lip Gloss
33. Roses
34. Blue
35. Parent's Nagging
36. Bro's NS hair & specs
37. Ugly hair
38. Mio Stadium
39. Tudou
40. Headphones
41. Yami Yogurt
42. Hokkien Mee
43. Sunday church
44. Family Guy
45. Doctor Who
46. 9 Tail Fox
47. Linkin Park
48. Southpaw people
49. 6 o'clock
50. TweetDeck
51. Ears
52. Eyes
53. Nose
54. Mouth
55. We Got Married
56. Star King
57. Min Woo
58. Skysports News
59. Podcasts
60. Kids
61. Music
62. Movies
63. Locnville
64. Song "Cooler Than Me"
65. Prince Harry
66. Eddie Cahill
67. Taylor Lautner
68. Crayfish
69. Egg
70. IKEA meatballs
71. Body scars
72. Sweat
73. Sweets
74. Remote Controls
75. Yahoo TW Bid shops
76. Dress Heavenly
77. Green Top
78. Leg massage machine
79. Sneezing
80. Yawning
81. Laughter
82. Crying
83. F1
84. Bugatti Veyron
85. Audi R8
86. Wedding Gowns
87. Autographs
88. World Cup
89. LA Lakers
90. Paint
91. LiveScoreHunter
92. Rafael Nadal
93. Spanish Armada
94. PS3
95. Football magazines
96. Radio
97. Fan
98. Contact lenses
99. Water
100. Me
There... they may be little or dumb to you, but to me, they mean the world. Literally stuff that comes to mind as I typed this... so fun.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Random Stuff
I'm back! Slightly more cheery too. I admit I have been caught up with my other football site that I've neglected this a little. Anyway, allow me to announce my latest 'adventures'.
First of all, me and mum have been spending 'quality' time together, cooped up at home. Daddy is in China at this moment, gone since Monday, but will be back tonight. As such, me and mum prepared a list of items to buy at DFS. Women will be women. There's no need to mention about bro LC because he's in camp.
I actually quite enjoy the REALLY peaceful time between me and mum, even though we don't talk a lot as well. I watch my top Gear, she play her Facebook games. In fact, we probably talk more about what we are going to send each other as gifts for specific Facebook games. How bonding.
This MioStadium new channel on MioTV for the new football season is actually pretty impressive. Football is currently the most talked about sports? I mean, even in Singapore, you don't hear people discussing about the various YOG events, going through the highlights EVERY SINGLE DAY etc. There are SO MANY people out there ready to put in their opinions and thoughts on football talk shows. I don't see any for YOG.
I am a Singaporean, but I'm not paying too much attention to YOG. Sadly to say, football comes first in my life. Before I start to dwell on football again, let's just move on.
Saw reports of staff and volunteers getting food poisoning at the YOG. I mean, Singapore is a food paradise, yet we can't get proper food to our dear volunteers and even the atheletes? Not to mention the amount of money being pumped into YOG, or is the lack of it? That's definitely not the way to build our reputation at holding such huge events. food is as important as lodging you know.
Well, that's about it. Shall talk more the next time. Heez.
First of all, me and mum have been spending 'quality' time together, cooped up at home. Daddy is in China at this moment, gone since Monday, but will be back tonight. As such, me and mum prepared a list of items to buy at DFS. Women will be women. There's no need to mention about bro LC because he's in camp.
I actually quite enjoy the REALLY peaceful time between me and mum, even though we don't talk a lot as well. I watch my top Gear, she play her Facebook games. In fact, we probably talk more about what we are going to send each other as gifts for specific Facebook games. How bonding.
This MioStadium new channel on MioTV for the new football season is actually pretty impressive. Football is currently the most talked about sports? I mean, even in Singapore, you don't hear people discussing about the various YOG events, going through the highlights EVERY SINGLE DAY etc. There are SO MANY people out there ready to put in their opinions and thoughts on football talk shows. I don't see any for YOG.
I am a Singaporean, but I'm not paying too much attention to YOG. Sadly to say, football comes first in my life. Before I start to dwell on football again, let's just move on.
Saw reports of staff and volunteers getting food poisoning at the YOG. I mean, Singapore is a food paradise, yet we can't get proper food to our dear volunteers and even the atheletes? Not to mention the amount of money being pumped into YOG, or is the lack of it? That's definitely not the way to build our reputation at holding such huge events. food is as important as lodging you know.
Well, that's about it. Shall talk more the next time. Heez.
Sunday, August 08, 2010
My Football Rants!
Here it is. I've officially opened a new blog, solely based on football!! Apparently I had an account over at WordPress, left there to rot because the dashboard stuff looked so complicating. I didn't have the motivation to check every link out 1 by 1. Now that I have that motivation, I've already set it up and also posted my first post!
Here's the link for now - Suju04. I've named it after my Twitter name too, easier I think. Haha... Anyway, in the future, if you people ever want to drop by and see once in a while, the link is located at the bottom under "Please Don't Leave" section, the one called 'My Football Rants'. I very efficient right? Sigh. If only I was this motivated to look for a job. Damn.
Here's the link for now - Suju04. I've named it after my Twitter name too, easier I think. Haha... Anyway, in the future, if you people ever want to drop by and see once in a while, the link is located at the bottom under "Please Don't Leave" section, the one called 'My Football Rants'. I very efficient right? Sigh. If only I was this motivated to look for a job. Damn.
Alright, the first rant should come in very soon, I've only wrote up an introductory post there. For some reason, I seem quite professional there, no 'Haha' or Singlish. Interesting. I can be another person there. Haha...
Rant
Maybe I should set up a football opinion site for me to rant. I mean, sooner or later this blog will be filled with stuff football related, where most of my friends won't even understand. It's just getting thoughts off my mind, especially after seeing other people's rants.
This should be solely for personal blogging, while the other would be solely on football. Hmmm... interesting. Since I got the time, I shall search for a blog interface and start my other blog. Wow. I come here for the intention to rant, but I actually found a solution instead. Shall hurry go find one blog skin and start a new blog!!
Obviously this blog will still be around, non-football-related blogging. There... if I can find one fast, I may still find the urge to rant. Haha...
Oh, on a side note, I'm feeling really weird now. Too much burps and indigestion. NYNY is not a place for meals. Their portions are getting larger. Argh... why did I order a drink too?!
This should be solely for personal blogging, while the other would be solely on football. Hmmm... interesting. Since I got the time, I shall search for a blog interface and start my other blog. Wow. I come here for the intention to rant, but I actually found a solution instead. Shall hurry go find one blog skin and start a new blog!!
Obviously this blog will still be around, non-football-related blogging. There... if I can find one fast, I may still find the urge to rant. Haha...
Oh, on a side note, I'm feeling really weird now. Too much burps and indigestion. NYNY is not a place for meals. Their portions are getting larger. Argh... why did I order a drink too?!
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
??
I won't call myself a mental person, since I'm still pretty sane, able to count and talk and write etc. But I feel like I have problems. Mental problems. Stuff like talking to myself every day, having 2 split personalities, or even having too much thought cells to trigger tears.
I know most of it stem from me cooping myself at home all the time. But somehow, it runs deeper. Im not a very confident person to start off, I don't think there's a single event that triggered my low confidence. I refuse to get a job because im afriad of interviews, or meeting strangers. It's like they are questioning you in an alien language and you try your best to understand. I know I have the abilities, but I just don't know how to take that step.
Talking to myself has become part of the routine. I even have imaginary friends. Sometimes I tell them my worries and stuff, sometimes I dwell into my imaginary bank and think of all sorts of stories... ok, I beginning to freak myself out here too.
Split personalities I can take. I mean, people always say I 'talk' different when im on msn, or talking in person. You'll notice I talk alot more on msn, ok, make that type, and I talk alot less in front of people. There, I have people problems too. and I think I know why.
I'm so afraid of what people think of me, I might as well just shut up and listen. Or perhaps most of the time I wonder off in dreamland, pretending I understand what people are talking about. Laughing is easy, people laugh, you laugh along, don't really have to get what people are saying. I've learnt the art of reading facial expressions. Haha...
I have another example. Let's say I have a friend who dislikes some type of people. If I happen to have part of the trait, I try to change so my friend won't find me irritating. Ok, that's not a good example. Damn, I think people are going to get creeped out when they read this post. THIS IS ME. This is who I am deep inside. The one who would rather keep myself in my own room and cry my eye balls out, then come out and pretend nothing happened. "There was sand in my eyes."
Ok, was off ranting on my Twitter. I feel like crying now. Crap, this calls for SHINee's songs! iTunes hurry up open!!! Ahh... that's better. Im smiling now~~ Ok, back to the topic. I don't think anybody actually reads my blog also, they are all far too busy.
To be honest im glad I have Facebook games to keep me company. Is there a kind of job that allows me not to see anyone and still work and earn money? My mood always dampen when people BUG me about getting a job. Obviously, I won't tell them my problems, that's why they keep bugging. Irritating bugs. Please don't feel offended. I'm not in a good mood now. That's why SHINee came in to help me. For once I'm actually typing thoughts straight hot off my brain. I used to have... shit what's that word?! I used to have thoughts thought off because they can't appear here, now everything is coming out! Haha... this is fun.
Maybe I should end soon. My mind of filled with SHINee now, hard to continue this post.
I know most of it stem from me cooping myself at home all the time. But somehow, it runs deeper. Im not a very confident person to start off, I don't think there's a single event that triggered my low confidence. I refuse to get a job because im afriad of interviews, or meeting strangers. It's like they are questioning you in an alien language and you try your best to understand. I know I have the abilities, but I just don't know how to take that step.
Talking to myself has become part of the routine. I even have imaginary friends. Sometimes I tell them my worries and stuff, sometimes I dwell into my imaginary bank and think of all sorts of stories... ok, I beginning to freak myself out here too.
Split personalities I can take. I mean, people always say I 'talk' different when im on msn, or talking in person. You'll notice I talk alot more on msn, ok, make that type, and I talk alot less in front of people. There, I have people problems too. and I think I know why.
I'm so afraid of what people think of me, I might as well just shut up and listen. Or perhaps most of the time I wonder off in dreamland, pretending I understand what people are talking about. Laughing is easy, people laugh, you laugh along, don't really have to get what people are saying. I've learnt the art of reading facial expressions. Haha...
I have another example. Let's say I have a friend who dislikes some type of people. If I happen to have part of the trait, I try to change so my friend won't find me irritating. Ok, that's not a good example. Damn, I think people are going to get creeped out when they read this post. THIS IS ME. This is who I am deep inside. The one who would rather keep myself in my own room and cry my eye balls out, then come out and pretend nothing happened. "There was sand in my eyes."
Ok, was off ranting on my Twitter. I feel like crying now. Crap, this calls for SHINee's songs! iTunes hurry up open!!! Ahh... that's better. Im smiling now~~ Ok, back to the topic. I don't think anybody actually reads my blog also, they are all far too busy.
To be honest im glad I have Facebook games to keep me company. Is there a kind of job that allows me not to see anyone and still work and earn money? My mood always dampen when people BUG me about getting a job. Obviously, I won't tell them my problems, that's why they keep bugging. Irritating bugs. Please don't feel offended. I'm not in a good mood now. That's why SHINee came in to help me. For once I'm actually typing thoughts straight hot off my brain. I used to have... shit what's that word?! I used to have thoughts thought off because they can't appear here, now everything is coming out! Haha... this is fun.
Maybe I should end soon. My mind of filled with SHINee now, hard to continue this post.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Airplanes
World Cup 2010 is over~~ Congrats to Spain~~ They did deserve the golden trophy, based on how the Final pen out... Netherlands were a tad too physical. Sorry RVP, next time maybe?
And then again, the stuff about Cesc & if he's going or not... it only escalated more when his 'friends' decided to play such a joke on him in front of tonnes of people. Im gonna tell myself that they were probably too drunk to really thought about it. If they weren't, it's a really harsh joke. I didn't like it.
Anyway, guess what? Tml Arsenal start their pre-season games!! As usual they open the season with a game at Underhill, home to Barnet F.C. Chamakh and Koscielny are both on the team travelling to Underhill tml, (I can already spell their names!!) so I expect them both to either start or play 2nd half. Manager always change whole squad for 2nd half, and since he bringing 22 players... ya... work it out yourself.
I do hope for more signings though... especially on the defensive side. I know im not the only one to wish so, a hell lot of fans and supporters are asking for defensive players, preferably in goal. Not going to over-hope for more players though, so I won't be too disappointed.
My CherryCulture parcel came ytd, totally excited coz it's just like opening presents for Christmas. Except, you know exactly what's inside. After sieving through the stuff, realise they got 1 item wrong. It wasn't that bad though, same color, just different shade. For nail polish, it's not so bad since it's in pink. Overall kind of like the haul, just have to try them out first. I only touched the nail polishes since they're the easiest to try. The lip products are a little harder, considering I still have plenty currently in use.
Recently got this new song, again previewed it on TV, didn't like it at first, but eventually fell in love with it. It's call Airplanes, by B.o.B ft Hayley Williams (Paramore). Awesome song. It's probably playing in the background now. Haha...
And then again, the stuff about Cesc & if he's going or not... it only escalated more when his 'friends' decided to play such a joke on him in front of tonnes of people. Im gonna tell myself that they were probably too drunk to really thought about it. If they weren't, it's a really harsh joke. I didn't like it.
Anyway, guess what? Tml Arsenal start their pre-season games!! As usual they open the season with a game at Underhill, home to Barnet F.C. Chamakh and Koscielny are both on the team travelling to Underhill tml, (I can already spell their names!!) so I expect them both to either start or play 2nd half. Manager always change whole squad for 2nd half, and since he bringing 22 players... ya... work it out yourself.
I do hope for more signings though... especially on the defensive side. I know im not the only one to wish so, a hell lot of fans and supporters are asking for defensive players, preferably in goal. Not going to over-hope for more players though, so I won't be too disappointed.
My CherryCulture parcel came ytd, totally excited coz it's just like opening presents for Christmas. Except, you know exactly what's inside. After sieving through the stuff, realise they got 1 item wrong. It wasn't that bad though, same color, just different shade. For nail polish, it's not so bad since it's in pink. Overall kind of like the haul, just have to try them out first. I only touched the nail polishes since they're the easiest to try. The lip products are a little harder, considering I still have plenty currently in use.
Recently got this new song, again previewed it on TV, didn't like it at first, but eventually fell in love with it. It's call Airplanes, by B.o.B ft Hayley Williams (Paramore). Awesome song. It's probably playing in the background now. Haha...
Saturday, July 03, 2010
WC Fever
WC is ending!! Omg... by tonight we will know the top 4 teams in this year's World Cup. Fast right?! Still remember myself fretting over where to watch the matchs online... now I have like too many sites to choose from. Haha...
I'll admit I didn't get to see all the matches, most of them due to the 2.30am timing - hard to wake up you know?! I only chose those key matches to wake up & watch diligently. So far, I must say, most of the matches have been pretty boring, especially at the group stage. Most of the teams are afriad to let in goals, so they tend to stay in their own half more often. Like waiting for the opponent to come in, then hit them on counter-attack. It's World Cup for goodness sake! You're already in the top 32 if you haven't noticed, so why not take the gamble? Haha... I speak like it's so easy to do so, football is alot harder when you're playing it, rather than people like us shouting at the TV screens.
Amidst WC fever, I've also got to follow Wimbledon. Football is like my no.1 sport, tennis is no.2. Then come Basketball and other sports when my interest is there. Am also glad to see Nadal made it to the Final, and he will play 'Federer + Djokovic' killer - Berdych. Berdych is quite tough, in the sense that his play is pretty much Nadal's opposite? Fast and hard play, great serve etc. Though im sure Nadal can win it ultimately. It'll be his 8th Grand Slam!!!
On a sports-aside news, I absolutely love SuJu's No Other performance!! Reminds me so much of Miracle! People who loved Miracle should go check it out!! Youtube 'No Other' to find the 2 performances they currently did. Tml they'll be on Inkigayo too. Really very fun and happy song!
Btw, the song im featuring is V Factory - Love Struck. They are an American boy band, formed in 2008 or last year. The guy from FAME the movie is in it too. Anyway, all the 5 members have theatre and dance and singing experiences. They can dance pretty well too! Go check out their MV. Again, youtube 'Love Struck' and you should get it.
I'll admit I didn't get to see all the matches, most of them due to the 2.30am timing - hard to wake up you know?! I only chose those key matches to wake up & watch diligently. So far, I must say, most of the matches have been pretty boring, especially at the group stage. Most of the teams are afriad to let in goals, so they tend to stay in their own half more often. Like waiting for the opponent to come in, then hit them on counter-attack. It's World Cup for goodness sake! You're already in the top 32 if you haven't noticed, so why not take the gamble? Haha... I speak like it's so easy to do so, football is alot harder when you're playing it, rather than people like us shouting at the TV screens.
Amidst WC fever, I've also got to follow Wimbledon. Football is like my no.1 sport, tennis is no.2. Then come Basketball and other sports when my interest is there. Am also glad to see Nadal made it to the Final, and he will play 'Federer + Djokovic' killer - Berdych. Berdych is quite tough, in the sense that his play is pretty much Nadal's opposite? Fast and hard play, great serve etc. Though im sure Nadal can win it ultimately. It'll be his 8th Grand Slam!!!
On a sports-aside news, I absolutely love SuJu's No Other performance!! Reminds me so much of Miracle! People who loved Miracle should go check it out!! Youtube 'No Other' to find the 2 performances they currently did. Tml they'll be on Inkigayo too. Really very fun and happy song!
Btw, the song im featuring is V Factory - Love Struck. They are an American boy band, formed in 2008 or last year. The guy from FAME the movie is in it too. Anyway, all the 5 members have theatre and dance and singing experiences. They can dance pretty well too! Go check out their MV. Again, youtube 'Love Struck' and you should get it.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Karate Kid
First of all I'd like to note that I'm doing 3 things at the same time. 1 - writing this blog post. 2 - streaming the Chile vs Switzerland match. 3 - streaming Federer's 1st Rd match in Wimbledon. I was streaming Federer because he was in trouble. He has since won the 4th set to tie it 2-2. 5th deciding set now.
Anyway, just watched 'The Karate Kid'. It was AWESOME. I think I had moments of tears forming in my eyes at 2 different parts of the movie. Kids crying always break my heart. Haha! Jaden Smith was awesome too. Not only can he do kunfu or karate, he can do his own stunts, & rap too! (I believe at the credits part he was rapping with Justin Bieber?!) I mean, these are kid actors! I believe most, if not all all the action stunts are done by themselves? My guess is they started out having already learnt kunfu, then being plucked out to act as well? These kids are kick-ass! Even way better action stuff than some adult action movies. And what a brilliant way to do slo-mo in a natural way (i.e on the replay board.)
Jaden is going to be a big star no doubt. Even though he has a famous dad & mum, he does really well in his first starring movie. This is going to help him not only physically, but also mentally. You can only get better with the guidance of his parents. If you stayed behind to watch the picture slides during the credits, you can see that his parents were in a number of them... I just love family bonding!!
The thing about this movie is that kids can watch it & like it too. In fact, the cinema I was in was full of family with kids. Adults get so engrossed in the movie that there were claps when he eventually dealt the winning blow. Im sure is more of in awe and also the stunning somersault made. I just went "Wow." So cool. When audience show such reactions, you know your movie is doing well to keep the attention of audience throughout the movie. And so far reviews have been pretty good too. Would definitely recommend you people to go watch it.
To be honest, I am a little curious about the bad kid leader towards the end of the movie. He is kind of cool too! Haha... won't be surprised if we see more of him in the future... need to do my research now. Haha!
Anyway, just watched 'The Karate Kid'. It was AWESOME. I think I had moments of tears forming in my eyes at 2 different parts of the movie. Kids crying always break my heart. Haha! Jaden Smith was awesome too. Not only can he do kunfu or karate, he can do his own stunts, & rap too! (I believe at the credits part he was rapping with Justin Bieber?!) I mean, these are kid actors! I believe most, if not all all the action stunts are done by themselves? My guess is they started out having already learnt kunfu, then being plucked out to act as well? These kids are kick-ass! Even way better action stuff than some adult action movies. And what a brilliant way to do slo-mo in a natural way (i.e on the replay board.)
Jaden is going to be a big star no doubt. Even though he has a famous dad & mum, he does really well in his first starring movie. This is going to help him not only physically, but also mentally. You can only get better with the guidance of his parents. If you stayed behind to watch the picture slides during the credits, you can see that his parents were in a number of them... I just love family bonding!!
The thing about this movie is that kids can watch it & like it too. In fact, the cinema I was in was full of family with kids. Adults get so engrossed in the movie that there were claps when he eventually dealt the winning blow. Im sure is more of in awe and also the stunning somersault made. I just went "Wow." So cool. When audience show such reactions, you know your movie is doing well to keep the attention of audience throughout the movie. And so far reviews have been pretty good too. Would definitely recommend you people to go watch it.
To be honest, I am a little curious about the bad kid leader towards the end of the movie. He is kind of cool too! Haha... won't be surprised if we see more of him in the future... need to do my research now. Haha!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
렛츠 스피크 코리안
렛츠 스피크 코리안 Let's speak Korean!! Haha... that's the direct English translation of let's speak korean. Suddenly want to improve my korean again. I stopped my korean course because I thought I lost interest. After spending much time on Korea entertainment I've found my motivation back!
Watching TV programmes you would want to watch the people talking instead of having to look at the bottom of the screen for sub-titles. People spend more time reading the sub-titles than watching the movie itself. Kind of irritating right?
I guess the only way to start learning is probably speaking and reading more Korean stuff? Seems like the only way I can learn is through reading the news of korean celebrities. I can form interest out of being curious about what the news are trying to say. But most of the time I fall after reading the first sentence. Haha! Don't understand anything~~~
Following SuJu and other Korean celebs on Twitter seemed to help too! I get to read their korean posts, learn abit here and there, and sometimes I actually understand what they are saying!! Those are the times I feel I have improved. Kind of satisfying too!
I've been eyeing the LG Lollipop for awhile, only looking at its exterior. I happen to be able to touch and play with one at a LG store, and found out it can type korean!! I was so excited, I told myself I have to get one. Then I casually brought up to daddy by first asking which of our plans have reached 2 years. In our family, whoever's phone plan reaches 2 years, and if anyone is interested to change phone can change, even if you're not the owner of the plan. So I asked them this question and nearest I got was 1 yr 5 months. Then obviously they will raise the question back to me, "Why? You want to change phone?" So I said I was looking at one. Then I mentioned it was a LG phone, and I want it because it can type Korean. What surprised me was my dad's reply, "Go and get it lor!" I said, "Serious?" Then added that I would be using 2 different phones if I got the LG one. Dad replied "Ya, get it without plan. How much?" So I mentioned around $200-$300++. Throughout the whole conversation he was surprisingly relaxed. Usually if I wanted to get a new phone, I have to convince him for quite some time, talking my sense into him. This time it's so different. I really feel like I've grown up.
So many things I want to do, yet I coop myself at home most of the time. The other thing I can think about is the tattoo. Really want to get 1, but I don't know where to go to. So many planning to do when you reach this age. Planning through them with details like a responsible adult. Can't believe Im reaching 22 already.
Sigh. Lollipop and tattoo 기다려주십시오.
Watching TV programmes you would want to watch the people talking instead of having to look at the bottom of the screen for sub-titles. People spend more time reading the sub-titles than watching the movie itself. Kind of irritating right?
I guess the only way to start learning is probably speaking and reading more Korean stuff? Seems like the only way I can learn is through reading the news of korean celebrities. I can form interest out of being curious about what the news are trying to say. But most of the time I fall after reading the first sentence. Haha! Don't understand anything~~~
Following SuJu and other Korean celebs on Twitter seemed to help too! I get to read their korean posts, learn abit here and there, and sometimes I actually understand what they are saying!! Those are the times I feel I have improved. Kind of satisfying too!
I've been eyeing the LG Lollipop for awhile, only looking at its exterior. I happen to be able to touch and play with one at a LG store, and found out it can type korean!! I was so excited, I told myself I have to get one. Then I casually brought up to daddy by first asking which of our plans have reached 2 years. In our family, whoever's phone plan reaches 2 years, and if anyone is interested to change phone can change, even if you're not the owner of the plan. So I asked them this question and nearest I got was 1 yr 5 months. Then obviously they will raise the question back to me, "Why? You want to change phone?" So I said I was looking at one. Then I mentioned it was a LG phone, and I want it because it can type Korean. What surprised me was my dad's reply, "Go and get it lor!" I said, "Serious?" Then added that I would be using 2 different phones if I got the LG one. Dad replied "Ya, get it without plan. How much?" So I mentioned around $200-$300++. Throughout the whole conversation he was surprisingly relaxed. Usually if I wanted to get a new phone, I have to convince him for quite some time, talking my sense into him. This time it's so different. I really feel like I've grown up.
So many things I want to do, yet I coop myself at home most of the time. The other thing I can think about is the tattoo. Really want to get 1, but I don't know where to go to. So many planning to do when you reach this age. Planning through them with details like a responsible adult. Can't believe Im reaching 22 already.
Sigh. Lollipop and tattoo 기다려주십시오.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Keep the Faith!
Oh, and it was a super abrupt end to the 09/10 English Premier League last weekend. All the matches were played at the same time on the same day on Sunday. It's how they started the season too, start and end at the same time. As usual I was watching Arsenal take on Fulham. Chelsea had to win their match if they wanted to claim the title. They won their match 8-0. So much for scoring 103 goals in 38 games. That's a Premier League record. And to think people were banking on Arsenal to break the 100-mark at the start of the season. HaHaHa.
Anyway, it was a weird season many would say. Arsenal were in and out of the race almost every different week! In the end we ran out of fire power towards the last few games and fell. Never really got back up until the last game of the season, which was a rather easy one considering Arsenal were playing at home, Fulham filled a weaker starting-11 due to their Europa League Final coming tonight. They wanted to conserve most of the energy of the first-team players so they will be fresh for tonight. Understandable since they are mid-table save in the League, and have every opportunity to take the Europa League title. In a way, it was an easy match.
By half time Arsenal were already 3-0 up. Kind of like game over for Fulham. It also had an 'end of season' feel as the players began to decrease the game speed, almost strolling around the pitch. The end result was 4-0. What a way to end the season too with Vela's trademark CHIP. Arsenal started the season with Denilson's wonder goal, and ended with Vela's chip. At least it was a good ending. Some movies don't even have an ending at all.
Now the transfer reports are flying. Reports say Marouane Chamakh is on his way to Arsenal. I think that's already a done deal - sooner or later the official website is going to annouce so. I believe there are more players going to come in too. Not sure who, but all the rumours flying around are usually 90% false. Hard to believe them. Anyway, I guess the only thing football to look forward now is the WORLD CUP. Daddy not subscribing to it on cable TV, so it's online for me! Not sure who Im rooting for though, caught between England and Spain. England because I watch EPL, and basically know every English players they have. Spain because I somehow like Spain for no reason. It's the same with Nadal. There's just something about these Spanish sports people. Their passion and quiet-ness? As in they don't boast and always remain humble? I don't know.
If both England and Spain were to reach the Final, I'd probably go 51% Spain. I think they deserve it more than England.
Anyway, it was a weird season many would say. Arsenal were in and out of the race almost every different week! In the end we ran out of fire power towards the last few games and fell. Never really got back up until the last game of the season, which was a rather easy one considering Arsenal were playing at home, Fulham filled a weaker starting-11 due to their Europa League Final coming tonight. They wanted to conserve most of the energy of the first-team players so they will be fresh for tonight. Understandable since they are mid-table save in the League, and have every opportunity to take the Europa League title. In a way, it was an easy match.
By half time Arsenal were already 3-0 up. Kind of like game over for Fulham. It also had an 'end of season' feel as the players began to decrease the game speed, almost strolling around the pitch. The end result was 4-0. What a way to end the season too with Vela's trademark CHIP. Arsenal started the season with Denilson's wonder goal, and ended with Vela's chip. At least it was a good ending. Some movies don't even have an ending at all.
Now the transfer reports are flying. Reports say Marouane Chamakh is on his way to Arsenal. I think that's already a done deal - sooner or later the official website is going to annouce so. I believe there are more players going to come in too. Not sure who, but all the rumours flying around are usually 90% false. Hard to believe them. Anyway, I guess the only thing football to look forward now is the WORLD CUP. Daddy not subscribing to it on cable TV, so it's online for me! Not sure who Im rooting for though, caught between England and Spain. England because I watch EPL, and basically know every English players they have. Spain because I somehow like Spain for no reason. It's the same with Nadal. There's just something about these Spanish sports people. Their passion and quiet-ness? As in they don't boast and always remain humble? I don't know.
If both England and Spain were to reach the Final, I'd probably go 51% Spain. I think they deserve it more than England.
SUJU TIME!
People it's SUJU time!!! They are finally making their comeback with their 4th album!! Even though there's only gonna be 10 of them, it's still worth looking forward to!
Here is the MV of my favourite Korean boys - 미인아 BONAMANA . They look SUPER awesome, don't they? Haha. Can't wait for their comeback debut this friday. Hopefully they win an award too! These boys totally deserve their status, they've worked so hard to reach where they are now. No matter what happens, Super Junior will always be my babies, and they will always be 13!
Hangeng, Kibum, Kangin... waiting for all 13 to be together.
Here is the MV of my favourite Korean boys - 미인아 BONAMANA . They look SUPER awesome, don't they? Haha. Can't wait for their comeback debut this friday. Hopefully they win an award too! These boys totally deserve their status, they've worked so hard to reach where they are now. No matter what happens, Super Junior will always be my babies, and they will always be 13!
Hangeng, Kibum, Kangin... waiting for all 13 to be together.
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Emo time~
Trying to waste a bit of time. Not going into details as to why, as I believe I've done the complaining before. It's all the same situation, no matter who comes. Anyway, there's nothing much I can do about it too, except to complain. Haha...
These are the times where I'd love to leave the house. Either they go out, or I go out. I seem a bit anti-social right? Sometimes I wonder if Im sick. Haha! You know those anti-social illness? Chinese call 'Zhi Bi Zhen'. I watched Brilliant Legacy recently, and the kid brother has that. Im not as serious as his though, but similar?
Im tired. But trying to keep myself awake. Sick right? I think I keep alot of stuff to myself lately. Like the amount I tweet and blog, shows how much thoughts I have on my mind. Like can't find anyone to share also. People may think Im actually talkative in person. Im one of those that literally have 2 different personalities in person, and on msn or twitter etc. Im shy, look like I killed someone when I feel emo, even looking unapproachable. I WANT to be social, want to feel important and stuff, but my stupid mouth wun open. I think I mention before, that sometimes my mind will explode with great questions and stuff to say during a conversation, but they always end up kept shut in my mind, refusing to be said out by my mouth. I also dunno what im afraid of. Is like, I can never find the right moment to say something right.
I think it's partly coz I reflect on people's thoughts and words WAY TOO MUCH. Is like, stuff said during my primary school etc, are remembered so clearly now. Stuff about my appearance, my actions, my whatever, is like what ever people comment on me, I REMEMBER. And I hang onto them for quite some time, maybe never forgetting. I also tend to remember embarassing moments, and hang onto them like forever. And they're mostly the bad stuff I remember, hardly any good ones. Am I too hard on myself? Can I ever be more free? Haha... funny if I put it that way.
Whatever it is, nothing seems to motivate me these days... I think my parents will probably feel im useless. Ok, better stop bashing myself now. Just gonna make me cry any moment. Nitez people.
These are the times where I'd love to leave the house. Either they go out, or I go out. I seem a bit anti-social right? Sometimes I wonder if Im sick. Haha! You know those anti-social illness? Chinese call 'Zhi Bi Zhen'. I watched Brilliant Legacy recently, and the kid brother has that. Im not as serious as his though, but similar?
Im tired. But trying to keep myself awake. Sick right? I think I keep alot of stuff to myself lately. Like the amount I tweet and blog, shows how much thoughts I have on my mind. Like can't find anyone to share also. People may think Im actually talkative in person. Im one of those that literally have 2 different personalities in person, and on msn or twitter etc. Im shy, look like I killed someone when I feel emo, even looking unapproachable. I WANT to be social, want to feel important and stuff, but my stupid mouth wun open. I think I mention before, that sometimes my mind will explode with great questions and stuff to say during a conversation, but they always end up kept shut in my mind, refusing to be said out by my mouth. I also dunno what im afraid of. Is like, I can never find the right moment to say something right.
I think it's partly coz I reflect on people's thoughts and words WAY TOO MUCH. Is like, stuff said during my primary school etc, are remembered so clearly now. Stuff about my appearance, my actions, my whatever, is like what ever people comment on me, I REMEMBER. And I hang onto them for quite some time, maybe never forgetting. I also tend to remember embarassing moments, and hang onto them like forever. And they're mostly the bad stuff I remember, hardly any good ones. Am I too hard on myself? Can I ever be more free? Haha... funny if I put it that way.
Whatever it is, nothing seems to motivate me these days... I think my parents will probably feel im useless. Ok, better stop bashing myself now. Just gonna make me cry any moment. Nitez people.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
So Hard...
Just have this sudden moment to talk about something. I just watched this programme on TV called 'Love Rescue'. It's a korean programme, basically like the Xiao Zhou and Hei Ren show years ago. They girlfriends who are having problems with their boyfriends to come in, they spy on their boyfriends. Most of the time their boyfriends are doing something bad behind their backs.
This episode I saw, this guy, SERIOUSLY the worst you can EVER meet. The moment he gets to know a girl, he gets close to her. The problem is, these girls actually fall for him, because he always act innocent and sweet in front of them. He will sweet-talk them into going out with him and be his girlfriends. Everytime he meets another girl, he pretends that he is single therefore the girl always get cheated. Is like, everytime he meets someone new, he tries to get rid of 1 of his other girlfriends. So it's like a cycle?!
They show sent a spy to 'seduce' him so as to show his true colors in front of hidden cameras. He boldly asks for the spy's number, and they quickly got to be bf/gf. They even made out in front of the cameras. Though I must say, the girlfriend who asks to be on the show to spy on him is kind of stupid and naive. How can you still be bf/gf if you can't even meet your bf for like a month?! They only met for 3 months, yet she's complaining and doesn't know a thing?! I mean, I've never been in a rltp before, but if your bf refuse to see you for a month, won't you suspect something already?! He kept sweet-talking her into staying with him, yet time and time again she buckles and gives in to him. WTH.
She seems to know him very well too, because apparently this guy also seduced her close friend. In the end she found out, cut off ties with her friend, and STILL want to be his girlfriend?! WTH x2. In the end guess what the show did to bust the guy? He called out another girl out, they got into a lift at 15th floor, then at 10th floor, the spy girl came into the lift; at 5th floor, the naive girlfriend walked into the lift. So he is faced by 3 different girls. At 1st floor, the lift door open to reveal the whole crew. Seriously, what is he to do?! He knows he got busted, but is he going to be humiliated right there and then on camera?! Anyway he walked out of the building without saying a word. The producers tried hard to get him to get interviewed, but he didn't want to (obviously, would you?!). In the end all he said was that he hoped the girl would find someone and stay happy etc. What else is he to say?!
The best part of the show actually came from the guy though. I clapped when I heard it. His friend casually asks how he manages to get so many girls to like him, and guess what he said. 'I read a book.' 'The book teaches you about dating. All the way from getting to know the girl to breaking up.' OMFG. Clap please.
Anyway, I think the whole show makes the girl look stupid lor. The guy's face got mosiac throughout the whole show so we can't even see his face. In the end, it's the girl who suffers the most, on and off camera. It's like she becomes the bad girl as well. Haiz.
After watching this programme it kind of make me think about how hard it is to find the right guy. People have so many faces they can choose to put on when they meet other people, sometimes you don't even know the person until you really get to know them. Finding the right partner is even worse. At times like this, I'd gladly stay single forever. Im the soft-hearted kind, and if I ever meet guys like above, I honestly don't know how I'd react. I mean, if I really really love him, would I be able to let him go?
Envious I stay, single I remain.
This episode I saw, this guy, SERIOUSLY the worst you can EVER meet. The moment he gets to know a girl, he gets close to her. The problem is, these girls actually fall for him, because he always act innocent and sweet in front of them. He will sweet-talk them into going out with him and be his girlfriends. Everytime he meets another girl, he pretends that he is single therefore the girl always get cheated. Is like, everytime he meets someone new, he tries to get rid of 1 of his other girlfriends. So it's like a cycle?!
They show sent a spy to 'seduce' him so as to show his true colors in front of hidden cameras. He boldly asks for the spy's number, and they quickly got to be bf/gf. They even made out in front of the cameras. Though I must say, the girlfriend who asks to be on the show to spy on him is kind of stupid and naive. How can you still be bf/gf if you can't even meet your bf for like a month?! They only met for 3 months, yet she's complaining and doesn't know a thing?! I mean, I've never been in a rltp before, but if your bf refuse to see you for a month, won't you suspect something already?! He kept sweet-talking her into staying with him, yet time and time again she buckles and gives in to him. WTH.
She seems to know him very well too, because apparently this guy also seduced her close friend. In the end she found out, cut off ties with her friend, and STILL want to be his girlfriend?! WTH x2. In the end guess what the show did to bust the guy? He called out another girl out, they got into a lift at 15th floor, then at 10th floor, the spy girl came into the lift; at 5th floor, the naive girlfriend walked into the lift. So he is faced by 3 different girls. At 1st floor, the lift door open to reveal the whole crew. Seriously, what is he to do?! He knows he got busted, but is he going to be humiliated right there and then on camera?! Anyway he walked out of the building without saying a word. The producers tried hard to get him to get interviewed, but he didn't want to (obviously, would you?!). In the end all he said was that he hoped the girl would find someone and stay happy etc. What else is he to say?!
The best part of the show actually came from the guy though. I clapped when I heard it. His friend casually asks how he manages to get so many girls to like him, and guess what he said. 'I read a book.' 'The book teaches you about dating. All the way from getting to know the girl to breaking up.' OMFG. Clap please.
Anyway, I think the whole show makes the girl look stupid lor. The guy's face got mosiac throughout the whole show so we can't even see his face. In the end, it's the girl who suffers the most, on and off camera. It's like she becomes the bad girl as well. Haiz.
After watching this programme it kind of make me think about how hard it is to find the right guy. People have so many faces they can choose to put on when they meet other people, sometimes you don't even know the person until you really get to know them. Finding the right partner is even worse. At times like this, I'd gladly stay single forever. Im the soft-hearted kind, and if I ever meet guys like above, I honestly don't know how I'd react. I mean, if I really really love him, would I be able to let him go?
Envious I stay, single I remain.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Alone at home
Been spending some alone time recently. Parents went to Malaysia since wednesday, be back sunday afternoon; bro as usual always out, can understand since he booking in on Monday!! Wun say I'd miss him, obviously I do, but can't wait to see him bald. Haha!
Being alone at home kind of reminds me what it'll be like if I ever move out to live on my own. You know the taking care of house part, sweep and mop floor, clothes washing and other stuff... at least I know how to take care of myself. Kind of like being alone too. Can laugh as loud as I want, can play music as loud as I want, can do whatever I want. I actually love being alone. Kind of crazy since I used to moan about being alone everytime on the blog. What a change! Am I really getting old?!
More videoing from 2PM, 2AM... I actually love them bunch already. I was really pro-SM Ent and anti-all other company, so never really expect myself to like them too. But I really do. They are totally different bunch of boys. More of the American 'must go gym work out and build on muscles' kind. Haha... they all seem to have great body. Anyway, no harm finding more idols to idolize right? Im single anyway... no bf to get jealous over.. haha!
Waiting for McD Breakfast, HUNGRY!
Being alone at home kind of reminds me what it'll be like if I ever move out to live on my own. You know the taking care of house part, sweep and mop floor, clothes washing and other stuff... at least I know how to take care of myself. Kind of like being alone too. Can laugh as loud as I want, can play music as loud as I want, can do whatever I want. I actually love being alone. Kind of crazy since I used to moan about being alone everytime on the blog. What a change! Am I really getting old?!
More videoing from 2PM, 2AM... I actually love them bunch already. I was really pro-SM Ent and anti-all other company, so never really expect myself to like them too. But I really do. They are totally different bunch of boys. More of the American 'must go gym work out and build on muscles' kind. Haha... they all seem to have great body. Anyway, no harm finding more idols to idolize right? Im single anyway... no bf to get jealous over.. haha!
Waiting for McD Breakfast, HUNGRY!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Youtubing Like Nobody's Business
Been busy youtubing these days. Seems like there's an infinite number of videos out there... there's NO WAY anyone could see them ALL.
It started with watching Kang Shim Jang awhile ago. I loved Jessica the moment I saw her on the show. Never really followed SNSD, but from Jessica I started knowing the other members as well (Didn't take long to memorise all their names too!) Thanks to years of training since SJ started.. haha! Then somehow it went onto SHINEE, leading to me going crazy over them, possibly watching all subbed videos on Youtube of their variety shows. Also got to know their songs too. As you can already hear, the song featured is by SHINEE called 'JoJo'!
From SHINEE I went on to watch 2PM as well. Forgot how I got to them, but members get split up that they will always somehow meet in the same show. So watched the 2PM Idol Army as well. Boy, was I blown away by their variety comedian antics too! So, as usual when to search their profiles, learnt their names etc. I followed SHINEE since they debuted, but stopped in the middle till they came onto Hello Baby! Those dorks were cute as ever, (not to forget the baby Yoogoon too!) that's why I got attracted to them again. Then with 2PM, you can never stray away from 2AM too. Though I didn't watch much of 2AM, but from JoKwon's 'marriage' to GaIn I learnt alot about 2AM too... also funny people.
Seems like idols these days can never live without being funny on variety shows. I always seem to like and remember the funny ones better. Those that will make you laugh till you cry... oh boy. I ended today's youtubing of Korean boy bands with BEAST! Also sort of watched them debut last year, they did their own MTV show, but couldn't find any subs on Youtube... shame. Would have luaghed my head off too... also a bunch of funny dorks. All of them are dorks!! And great to watch because most of them are younger than I am. Kind of ironic, but I seem to like younger boys these days... might be their influence. Naturally, guys' names seem easy to remember. I could still take in the occasional odd members in other groups, but they never really stand out like those I mentioned above.
Seriously gone Korean these days, had a long period of 'English songs only' moments, now it's the Korea period?! What's next?
LOVE JongHyun Onew JongHoon Taecyeon Wooyoung Nichkhun Yoseob DooJoon & THE WHOLE 13 OF SUJU
It started with watching Kang Shim Jang awhile ago. I loved Jessica the moment I saw her on the show. Never really followed SNSD, but from Jessica I started knowing the other members as well (Didn't take long to memorise all their names too!) Thanks to years of training since SJ started.. haha! Then somehow it went onto SHINEE, leading to me going crazy over them, possibly watching all subbed videos on Youtube of their variety shows. Also got to know their songs too. As you can already hear, the song featured is by SHINEE called 'JoJo'!
From SHINEE I went on to watch 2PM as well. Forgot how I got to them, but members get split up that they will always somehow meet in the same show. So watched the 2PM Idol Army as well. Boy, was I blown away by their variety comedian antics too! So, as usual when to search their profiles, learnt their names etc. I followed SHINEE since they debuted, but stopped in the middle till they came onto Hello Baby! Those dorks were cute as ever, (not to forget the baby Yoogoon too!) that's why I got attracted to them again. Then with 2PM, you can never stray away from 2AM too. Though I didn't watch much of 2AM, but from JoKwon's 'marriage' to GaIn I learnt alot about 2AM too... also funny people.
Seems like idols these days can never live without being funny on variety shows. I always seem to like and remember the funny ones better. Those that will make you laugh till you cry... oh boy. I ended today's youtubing of Korean boy bands with BEAST! Also sort of watched them debut last year, they did their own MTV show, but couldn't find any subs on Youtube... shame. Would have luaghed my head off too... also a bunch of funny dorks. All of them are dorks!! And great to watch because most of them are younger than I am. Kind of ironic, but I seem to like younger boys these days... might be their influence. Naturally, guys' names seem easy to remember. I could still take in the occasional odd members in other groups, but they never really stand out like those I mentioned above.
Seriously gone Korean these days, had a long period of 'English songs only' moments, now it's the Korea period?! What's next?
LOVE JongHyun Onew JongHoon Taecyeon Wooyoung Nichkhun Yoseob DooJoon & THE WHOLE 13 OF SUJU
Monday, April 12, 2010
Friday Night Live
Always get so much thoughts after watching the ArsenalTV Online Friday Night Live. I don't watch it 'LIVE' btw, coz that will mean me waking up at 2am and staying awake till 5am on Saturday morning. If not for the daylight saving time, it will be the usual 8hr difference which puts me awake from 3 to 6am.
The stuff that fans call in to voice their opinions on air always have me either agreeing or disagreeing with them. Somehow I always find myself agreeing with the 3 hosts for that Fans' Forum programme. I understand fans have different opinions about certain things, but I never expected the diversity of their thoughts. That's 1 thing fun about watching Fans' Forum. You hear absolutely everything, all about Arsenal of course. And sometimes it's fun!
Every friday there will always be players singled out for praises, or for criticisms. You either agree or disagree. Then at the same time, you actually form your own opinion after you hear what others have to say. It's like a realisation programme that makes you aware of what others are thinking. You're probably not the only one who thinks differently about a player. Add in the frequent funny statements and you have a rather complete programme. Not to mention the more professional look back and ahead into games at the start of this Fridat Night series - simply known as Friday Live. Basically a host is accompanied by 2 guests - usually ex-players, where they look back as well as ahead to coming fixtures. It's all professional there, talking about tactics, what went right and wrong on the last games, the possible line-up for next game etc. Pretty much on-pitch stuff.
In between you have an interview with a first-team player about on and off pitch stuff. It's more about getting to know the player better. Pretty relaxing and cool interview that players can talk about their slightly private stuff off pitch.
The whole programme just brings laughter and joy to me EVERYTIME. I always look forward to it every saturday and just spend 3hrs listening and watching... really great fun considering I subscribe to the ArsenalTV Online thing. Lovely bonus~
Congrates to Pompey for the great win over Arsenal's rival!
The stuff that fans call in to voice their opinions on air always have me either agreeing or disagreeing with them. Somehow I always find myself agreeing with the 3 hosts for that Fans' Forum programme. I understand fans have different opinions about certain things, but I never expected the diversity of their thoughts. That's 1 thing fun about watching Fans' Forum. You hear absolutely everything, all about Arsenal of course. And sometimes it's fun!
Every friday there will always be players singled out for praises, or for criticisms. You either agree or disagree. Then at the same time, you actually form your own opinion after you hear what others have to say. It's like a realisation programme that makes you aware of what others are thinking. You're probably not the only one who thinks differently about a player. Add in the frequent funny statements and you have a rather complete programme. Not to mention the more professional look back and ahead into games at the start of this Fridat Night series - simply known as Friday Live. Basically a host is accompanied by 2 guests - usually ex-players, where they look back as well as ahead to coming fixtures. It's all professional there, talking about tactics, what went right and wrong on the last games, the possible line-up for next game etc. Pretty much on-pitch stuff.
In between you have an interview with a first-team player about on and off pitch stuff. It's more about getting to know the player better. Pretty relaxing and cool interview that players can talk about their slightly private stuff off pitch.
The whole programme just brings laughter and joy to me EVERYTIME. I always look forward to it every saturday and just spend 3hrs listening and watching... really great fun considering I subscribe to the ArsenalTV Online thing. Lovely bonus~
Congrates to Pompey for the great win over Arsenal's rival!
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