No Promises

No Promises

Title of a song by Shayne Ward.
Not bad, want the song can get from me, heez.

Anyway, I was pretty over in my last post.
I apologise if I scare any of you all.
Just wanted to state what I thought of.
I may be very different in here compared to what you know of me outside.
Everyone has their feelings to let out.
Sometimes this is the best way for me to let out my emotions.
You people may think I'm crazy,
but I'm afterall a shy and closed up girl.
There have to be a way for me to let them out,
you wouldn't want me to bottle everything up rite?

Haiz...I'm feeling super negative now.
Nevermind, looks like I can only count on Super Junior.
No one out there will be able to cheer me up now.

This IS my life. No Promises.

What are these sufferings for?

What are these sufferings for?

You always look cheerful,
enjoying every moment you do.
You are a big brother,
and a huge companion to the rest.
You took up the responsibility,
to drive yourselves to success.
You took up burdens on the way,
not wanting to pass them to the others.
Your body starts to fail,
but you show no pain.
You keep all unhappiness inside,
showing all your happiness on the outside.
You try to keep up and do the best you can,
but sometimes your body does not listen to your heart.
You know you have to keep moving,
in order to build paths for the rest.
But do you know,
when you suffer inside,
the rest of them know.
Your fans know too.
Everyone wants to share your burden,
your pain and your unhappiness.
How I wish,
to take your sufferings away,
and put them all in me.
How I wish God will do it for me.

Oppa~
Don't force yourself to do something you can't take ok?
I wouldn't want you to fall,
none of your fans would want that too.
Let your members help you ok?
All of you are together in this,
none of you should be left out.
Promise me,
don't push yourself to the extreme ok?
It hurts to see you in pain.
It hurts to see that you are suffering.

KIM HEE CHUL!

KIM HEE CHUL!

I know it's already a bit late to post bout it,
but here goes anyway..hahaz...

Happy 23rd Birthday To Kim Hee Chul!
AKA Cinderella....
SAENG IL CHU KA HAB NI DA!!!

Oh ya...I forgot to post about SUPER JUNIOR leader's bdae also..
so sad..hahaz...

anyway, his birthday was on 1st of July...
which makes him 23 also!!!
EE TEUK OPPA, SAENG IL CHU KA YO!!!!!!!

SUPER JUNIOR FIGHTING!!!!
KIM HEE CHUL FIHTING!!!
EE TEUK AKA PARK JUN SU FIGHTING!!!!
SUPER JUNIOR GO GO GO!!!!!

Memories~

Memories~

Im sorry about the late update...its been 1 mth le..hahaz...
feel so bad towards my blog now...
like not getting interesting anymore...
I see my friends like update so regularly de....
Feel even worst now....
Sorry Bloggy!!

Anyway, will TRY to keep this entry short...
its already 1.15am after I came back from ice skating...
so its technically already saturday!!
NVM...

Just wanna say how my mood went down below,
and then come back up!
Hahaz...wasn't too happy with me carrying the stupid laptop around..
(no my lappy aint stupid..it has all my precious SJ videos in it..
will cry if IF i ever loss it..its just the extra thing Im carrying on my hand that bothers me)

Secondly, was feeling terribly sore when skating...
first was I had gastric pains, (got worst as time past)
then the next was feeling inferior to other skaters..
its like Im such a slow learner..
and im not as daring as MOST of the juniors...
just feel so sore knowing that they are learning so much faster than me..
The more inferior I get, the more timid I get too..
I just lack that 'dare' part...
If I was open, I could already do many tricks by now...
But Im just not...
And sometimes I HATE myself for being so closed up..
feel damn shitty now...

Went for a HUGE gathering at the coffee shop..
Practically ALL the seniors were there,
including some juniors...
hahaz...the interesting thing is that,
the seniors are all guys, then the juniors are mostly girls with some guys too..
(that include us) so it kind of equal out...
I didn't count how many tables we put together in a row..
but my estimation says its......8 - 9 tables...
imagine them in one row...hahaz...
super attractive sia...
people walk past will take a second look at us...
hahaz...so kawaii....

Although it was hard to talk,
in the end still sort of manage to know more people..
heez...which is a good thing for us....
It's really the first time we actually have such gathering after skating..
cause normally the seniors will go off first...
then the 4 of us always together eating...hahaz...
once in awhile arrangement such as this really is a good thing..
Then after eating, everyone go their own ways..
like we have really gotten close together all of a sudden..
Like one HUGE HUGE family..hahaz...
I really hope tonights friendships keep up,
I don't want us to return back to original point...

BTW, I really very pei fu an yeong...
he NEVER fails to bring laugther to people around him..
his actions may be lame..
but at least it brought out smiles from even moody people..
he cut his finger and needed 7 stitches..(poor thing)
but he is still so vibrant....so active....hahaz....
always smiling de...
haven't seen him in bad mood before....

hahaz...thinking about what he did just now was....
super funny....
some of us boarded the MRT on the middle track (NS line)
Then he like in those korean dramas,
as the MRT is moving,
he becomes those korean actors running after the actress that boarded the MRT...
hahaz...so you see him running as the MRT moves off...
its really super funny when you actually see his expression and everything..
I just keep wondering where he get the energy from...
He seem to have endless supply of energy...
like don't need to sleep also can...hahaz.....

Overall, I really get to know more people through ISAN.
Characteristics that I have never seen before.
They really open my eyes to many more things.
And I will really take all this as my memories,
which I will keep forever in my heart and mind.

a BIG THANK YOU to all ISAN peeps....!!!!!
WE ROCK MAN~~
hahaz....JIA YOU!!
Must strive to make ISAN the most popular club in NP!!