Busy in Korea

Busy in Korea

By the time you ppl see this post,

I will be in Korea le..

if not, then on the way there...

haha....

Anyway, just wanna post something before I go...

So this blog wouldn't be like

"Why no post de?!"

hahaz...so tell you all first!!

I AM IN KOREA!!!

Don't miss me too much ok?

hahaz...

though think Im gonna miss you all a lot too~~

can't chat on msn often liao...

want to sms also must think twice,

heard one outgoing sms can be 40-50cents...

don't even think bout calling...

Anyway, hope I can enjoy myself~

Time to put everything aside,

Time to enjoy myself,

Time to think about SUPER JUNIOR!!!

It's KOREA TIME!!

K-O-R-E-A

K-O-R-E-A

Sorry ppl~~

for having to worry bout me...

My mood changes very quickly nowadays..

I also can't control...

Anyway,

I'll be going to Korea in 6 days time!!!

I'm SUPER excited bout it...

my daddy also went to change currency today..

and its the first time i see and touch and 'smell' Korean Won..

hahaz...cool leh~~~

Even went to buy special Autumn coat...

black de~~like detective....

Detective Cassandra reporting for duty!

haha..crazy.......

My mum seem to be able to find out new info bout Korea everyday.

She either calls relative who have been to Korea,

or went down to SA headquarters to find out..

she like much more excited than me...

and I'm happy about it of course...

after all she almost scared me to tears,

when my dad told me I may have to go alone...

something like my mum couldn't go..

I even thought of her having some disease...

CHOY~~touch wood...

in the end I was worrying too much..

actually up til now I still dunno wat was the reason...

but nvm! It's over....

I'm finally going to Korea WITH MY DEAREST MUMMY~~

my DADDY also very dearest of course..

he pay for the trip, change currency for us,

give us tips etc....haha.....

and all my BRO does is....

'tap tap tap....click click click.....tap tap tap...scroll scroll scroll'

typical.

Oh oh!!!

I just bought SUPER JUNIOR 05 CD today!!

22 September 2006 is a memorable day....

it's the day I bought their VERY FIRST album..

the day I officially call myself a SJ fan..

hahaz....i also manage to collect a few of their articles...

going to put all together and form a wallpaper..

maybe can collect and form a SJ book..

wooott~~

Seeing more and more of Fei Lun Hai these days also..

still remember them?

I hope you all do...

coz they are back!!

hahaz.....with their first album...

nice songs actually....

thinking want to buy or not....

the pictures are BIG and shuai~~~~

haha...can put as wallpaper le!!!

My room the wallpapers very out-of-date le...haiz..

Give me K

'K'

Give me O

'O'

Give me R

'R'

Give me E

'E'

Give me A

'A'

What do you get?

korea~~

I can't hear you!

KOREA~~

One more time!!

KOREA~~~~~~

woooooooooooooooooooooooooo KOREA!!!

DOTZ.

Energy is back too..

though with only 3 ppl left,

they are still as hot as ever..

hahaha~~~~

love their new style~~

Yoyo ENERGY is back!~~~

Just finish IMF work from 11-20 Sep 2006..

actually wasn't as bad as I thought...

in fact, I kind of miss all of it...

including all the people I've talked to..

security guards, gurkhas, CFAs, VAs, FMs etc.....

the list just goes on....

at least for once I feel proud to be part of it..

afterall, we each got a FREE 512mb thumbdrive in our goodie bag..

$350+ in my bank account soon~

and lots of new friendship!!

What more could I have asked for?

Waiting for the day I finally leave Singapore for awhile.

These 8 days is crucial for me to forget everything in Singapore.

At least for the moment...

no reason

no reason

Haven't been feeling well lately, very moody.

I apologize if I've caused any worries or misunderstandings.

Don't know what is the reason either,

just don't feel very good.

Even if I gotten my skates already,

still feeling very negative.

I just can't stop thinking about negative stuff.

Think I'm going crazy.

I feel like I have split personality,

maybe thats why nobody want to talk to me.

I close up myself too much.

Sometimes find myself standing there alone,

with all the other people surrounding me,

talking in their groups.

This happened too much already,

but I can't seem to find the courage to approach.

Remember when we gathered for a concert,

to bid our Guides seniors farewell.

As the concert ended,

everybody started to gather around the seniors.

That was when I realise,

I didn't knew anyone at all.

I just stood around the exit of our hall,

and watch the night sky.

I force myself not to think too much,

while forcing my tears back in.

I hate myself for being timid.

I hate myself for thinking too much.

I hate myself for being so closed up.

I hate being lonely.

I hate having to type all this in my blog.

I never seem to get anything right.

I hate my life.

I don't belong in this world.

Depression

Depression

Everything is not going smooth today,

don't want to dwell too much on it.

Trying to find a way to let my emotions out,

don't want it to affect my performance for IMF.

Don't want people to know,

guessing a smile can put every thought away.

Super random post,

but that is how I feel.

Crying in the shower doesn't help much either.

The reason I close my eyes,

is to stop tears from flowing.

Skates~

Skates~

Oh man~~

the skates will only be in tml~~

but we may be going down on Wed to take a look..!

Woohoo~~~~

hahaz...

Went to skate with Evon Jean Teng and Evon's bro n bro's friends..

Teng was really really fast...

i mean she learns quite fast..

and moves fast also..

although she was walking most of the time..

but she was doing quite fine~~

then, she fell....

somemore she landed in the position of her hands by the side supporting..

and i mean with the palm on the ice..

so basically u would have stretched the wrist part.

dunno how to explain..but ya...

have to visualise...

I got that once too....

it was my left hand somemore...

and it took quite a while for the pain to TOTALLY disappear...

it really hurts.

so teng went home early...

then evon's bro n his friend also left...

so it was left with us 3~

and wat can 3 person do?

hahaz...

we tried speed skating...

or what u call that,

when one person skates FAST..

then the rest follow behind in 1 line..

ya...hahaz...it was quite fun actually...

coz there were quite a lot of ppl,

so we had to 'siam' ppl almost all the time..

and most of them are kids..

and yup.WITH the bar thingy~~

so actually it was pretty dangerous also..hahaz..

anywayz, after the speed thing..we all got tired..

there were getting fewer n fewer ppl too..

but it was getting quite boring...

so we thought of going to catch a movie somewhere..

in the end we chose to watch Devil Wears Prada.

took a quick dinner at the jap place at JE,

then took an mrt down to Woodlands..

realise we were 10+mins late for the movie..

so by the time we got our tix and the popcorn,

the show already started..

and our seat was quite in front...

the screen was super big..

so the 3 of us had to sit as low as possible,

so we could see better..hahaz.

Today was quite enjoyable actually.

Considering that next week onwards would be quite tough.

So must enjoy the most of this week as much as possible.

Hahaz....

at least can lighten the nervousness..

I think.

Btw, just a side note..

SuJu has just ended their 'U' Single Promo..

so basically, I wun get to see much of their performances..

thats really sad..

in the mean time,

they still have other schedules like shows and dramas and radios for some..

and they are starting on their new album!!

I'm sure it will be great!!

SuJu, Fighting!!!

Tengz...hope you get well soon~

must Jia You for the audition!!

IMF...hope everytime will turn out fine~

please dun give me any huge problems.

SuJu...hope to see you in Korea~

Keep Fighting!!!

Sarang Haeyo~~