Looking at you

Looking at you

I just realise,

how powerful it is just by

looking at you.

I'm able to forget everything

just by watching you.

You seem to have the attractive

yet mysterious look.

I realise I can't help myself but to keep staring at you.

everytime our eyes meet,

I seem to always look at another direction.

Fearing that I would stare

even longer at your eyes.

Even if I could only see your hair,

I will still look at you helplessly.

I'm beginning to look out for you,

even if I happen to cross the road,

my eyes were still sharp enough to locate you.

I know there isn't any love between us,

but I feel relaxed.

I know you will always be there,

even in times where I needed comfort.

You may not have notice my existence,

but I have noticed yours.

don't know is it just me or,

I find that you remind me of Kibum.

It kept me wondering,

what if I actually met Kibum

on the streets one day?

Would I act calmly,

or like just any other fans,

screaming for his autograph and picture?

Would he too give me that

sense of relaxness when I look into his eyes?

We will probably never meet as friends,

so let me continue to watch you quietly

without you knowing my existence ok?

I'm afraid that once I get to know you,
I will be disappointed.

So let's just stay this way ok?

At least there is someone out there,

who can help release my emotions.

lately, its hard to find anyone.

Bad girl?

Bad girl?

I have been a bad girl.

Don't know who to talk to.

so decided to blog about it.

all i can say is,

I ams super sensitive to what other people

think or say.

in a stupid way,

i will always link up all the bad things,

and point them to myself.

seeing quite a lot of hostile mood these days.

lots of 'gunning'.

i don't know how to say this,

(I'm nt good at words)

but I really don't wan to ruin anything.

I guess it is pretty obvious to some

at what I'm talking about.

it kept me thinking,

should I even have stepped into it

in the first place?

what would happen if i didn't?

Would things be different?

Would such friendships be built?

Would I loss the chance of

being more interactive?

how am I suppose to continue

with my SJ Full House?

Suddenly got no mood to watch on.

Maybe I should just stone til the next morning.

What is the point of having a club

where its members are not united at all?

I admit.

I have not done anything to save it.

Man, how i HATE msn.

Rock Go!

Rock Go!

Rokkugo Rokkugo~!

OMFG.

I'm addicted to the song already.

didn't know Korean Trot music

is so...powderful.

Rokkugo Rokkugo~!

anywayz,

this is the title of Suju T new single.

was already in the market ytd, 23 Jan 2007.

a total of 6 songs,

3 Trot songs,

other 3 is the first instrumental version.

btw, this is Suju 2nd sub-group.

first was SuperJunior K.R.Y,

by Kyuhyun.Ryeowook.Yesung.

They are known as Suju's main vocals.

Sings slow songs.

2nd group; SuperJunior T,

made up of 6 members:

Eeteuk.Heechul.Kangin.Shindong,Sungmin.Eunhyuk.

Their first single is based on Korea's

(first?) music, the TROT.

You can tell it's a very Korean song when you hear them.

I've got all 3 songs.

If you want to hear them, come find me.

This is their first song, Rokkugo MV.

ENJOY!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uKK1BWSYuSg

(sound a lot like some CNY song,

+ the MV is comical too!

Look closely, very interesting!!)

Tired tired

Tired tired

letting my hair to dry now,

in the mean time shall blog.

being in the com. of ISAN ain't good.

I don't mean to scare the next batch,

but seriously,

you need to be organised.

REALLY REALLY work together!!

our com. is the worst of all.

anyway on a happier note,

today was a 'fruitful' day.

though never went skating,

think most people didn't go.

(you will know why soon)

went theo house wif jean to bai nian.

got the ang bao and ate lunch too.

DELICIOUS!

then sat there til Jeff came,

talked cock til 4+.

left the house to meet flo and nic.

went far east and shop,

while waiting for qh.

met derek on the way,

so also joined us.

3 of us girls decided to shop separately from the guys.

so we went our ways,

after that met the guys agian,

and saw xf already with them.

soon, qh came,

and so we went to eat dinner

at KFC.

ay came in halfway

to join us.

after dinner,

we still went into Far East to further shop.

then Ben came in.

so total we got max of 11 ppl.

we walked to Taka,

on the way passing by Isetan,

so went to find evon.

shopped a little at Wisma,

then continued to walk to Cine.

in the end, ended up at the arcade.

the guys played some games,

while the rest watch them.

play til the game also 'shut down'

so sad.haha.

xf went off,

not sure why either.

slowly ay disappears too.

left us 9,

so decided to go drink Coffee Bean.

a bit comical,

we went around the building and couldn't find it.

when we finally found it,

it was too crowded.

so went to another one,

near Soumerset MRT.

coffee is addictive,

and destructable too.

when someone drinks coffee,

they become 'high' for no reason.

Nic was the main highlight of the 'high'.

he can totally put u laughing

throughout the whole drinking session.

it gets contagious too.

finally, all of us headed home.

lucky to have caught the last train,

took to Bishan MRT,

and realise still got last bus.

so me and qh hurry walked to the bus interchange,

and sat there and waited for the bus.

Luckily got last bus,

if not we would have chosen to walk home.

i getting long-winded again.

sorry!!

i shall stop.

Busy week?

Busy week?

Is this week counted as a busy week?

to some, maybe not.

to me, it is.

Basically what ever that requires

me to step out of house,

is considered busy.haha.

what I meant is that,

this week,

other than monday,

I have been stepping out of house

and will be stepping out of house,

for the next few days til sunday.

(that includes sunday of course!)

since CNY,

which was Sunday,

actually suppose to go relative house on saturday de,

but coz my daddy sick,

better not get near the baby.

so never go.

Sunday other than ppl coming to my house,

after they left,

our turn to go my mummy friend house.

Monday was kind of slack.

coz nowhere to go,

nowhere CAN go with daddy.

So sticked at home and watch TV

and basically, ROT.

then tuesday was the day of

visit-friend-house-and-take-ang-bao-day.

went to hh, yf then my house.

so also busy the whole day.

Busy til I also lazy to go out eat with them.haha.

Wednesday.

which was ytd,

(now already pass midnight)

didn't go anywhere.

That was i almost forgot need go for church.

Coz it was Ash Wednesday.

totally forgotten about it.

but that was at night.

after a while came home.

Actually it was suppose to be

the day to fast.

(meaning no food intake)

but to mum and the rest of my family,

it meant no meat for the day.

we can't afford to fast a whole day,

can we?!

thursday programme is about to begin too.

going to Mind Cafe to play games!!

haha.somewhere near Plaza Sing.

Still need to book de.

and the place won't open til 2pm.

Hope it will be fun,

at least we will be having fun before

wp goes to china for 4.5mths!

Super long til I can see her again.

haiz.

then friday.

MAYBE going skating.haha.

as usual, me this lazy girl,

if the girls go I will go,

if not, u cane me to come out,

I also wun go and skate.haha.

very dependant hor?

sianz.

but is skating leh.

You ask me to skate alone,

(got other ppl also lar,

but is different mah!)

think I will become ice soon.

literally, physically and 'heart'ly.

(can understand?!)

saturday going my relative house.

the one we did not go last Saturday.

hopefully can go and see the baby!!

Baby Brian~muack~!!

last but not least, Sunday.

after go church,

will go the suppose-to-visit-house during CNY.

sort of go and 'bai nian' again.haha.

means ang bao from them too!!

wee~~

got more angbaos this saturday and sunday le!

after all that, next week can count angbao $$ le.

then see what to do for the next few weeks lo.

my daddy thinking of

sending me and mummy for a trip again.

This time to Taiwan, (may include HK too).

checking around see anybody want come or not,

but due to the price, maybe nobody want tag along also.

haiz.$$$, stupid $$$.

but me seriously think,

going overseas with friends will be more fun.haha.

oopx! Sorry mum~!!

Millionaire's First Love

Millionaire's First Love

FREAK!

I didn't quite know the storyline,

so I watched it because got Hyun Bin & the girl.

Btw, her name is Lee Yeon Hee.

the front part was a little comical,

seeing the way Hyun Bin looses his temper

at almost everything,

after he is taken away of his riches,

and left in a countryside area.

He was to graduate at the school there,

before he can inhereit the fortune.

WHO KNOWS!

(a little spoilers from here onwards)

IT WAS A SAD MOVIE!

I practically cried through the middle

and end of the show.

Typical Korean movie i guess.

Must end in a sad way de.

Always will have people get sick,

then you know the ending.

This story is no different.

To add on to it,

it is the words they spoke that

got me all teary up.

I especially liked this part,

where the guy was celebrating girl's bday,

he prepared all the food and a gift.

Guess what was the gift?

At first I didn't know what was it,

thought it was some medicine or sweet.

coz the guy say only can open once a day,

if not will overdose.

you see overdose you thought is medicine right?

while, the girl couldn't take it,

and ran to her room and cry.

she open up the bottle,

then I realise what was inside.

She began to open 1,

and it read a messege.

she cried even harder.

You get the idea of what was inside the bottle.

Messeges rolled up.

SWEET? more touching actually.

She couldn't stop,

so she opened another.

and another.

1 read: Even if I'm with you at night,

it seems like day,

because you are my sunshine.

Some others even more touching,

couldn't remember,

only remembered that I cried together with her.

then the guy comes into her room.

She looked at him helplessly.

He hugs her, crying also.

He said:

I told you not to open more than 1 a day,

you will get overdosed.

Then the girl said:

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid I won't get to see them all.

then they cry and cry.

haiz.

sad right?

A lot of touching words spoken in here.

Touching til make me wanna die also.

It turns out, there was another surprise for him.

she was in fact his childhood playmate/sweet heart.

That made the story and my crying even worse.

I won't say too much le.

You all should go watch it yourself.

Anyway, I saw this on Ch 56.

today was the only repeat.

Not so sure if next month will have,

must wait til March issue of Telescope.

Anyway, those don't have SCV,

also can go rent the vcd.

I go check if can see or dl from online or not.

You can say I'm a little slow.

Coz this movie was shown last year de.

Maybe some of you all already seen it.

I searched thorugh youtube,

and realise they even got it uploaded

with english subtitles.

Even better. don't need to rent or dl le.

watch on utube.

Just type the title

"Millionaire's First Love"

then you will see them.

have fun watching!!

If you know you will cry,

please prepare tissue papers.

PS: I go watch the touching parts again.

TATA~!

Boring CNY

Boring CNY

this year's CNY is kind of boring.

1st thing, daddy is sick.

there are places which we can't go,

coz got small kids around.

My bro seems to be getting the flu bug too.

and soon my turn?!

hmm...not that I am $$-minded,

but the places I visit every year

are all my mum's side.

Coz my daddy is malaysian,

so most of his family members are all in Malaysia.

Considering the fact that

my mum has 5 other siblings,

my dad has 9 other siblings,

I should have a lot of ang bao right?

haha.omg.i really very ang bao-minded leh.

but can't help it lar.

I don't decide to work yet.

so no income,

except for my monthly allowance from my dad.

so basically,

I don't get to visit my daddy side the people,

except 2 other siblings,

where my dad + them are

based in Singapore de.

2 based in London,

1 based in Florida,

the remaining 4 based

in Malaysia of course.

whereas my mummy side only got

1 is based in Australia,

if all not in Singapore,

think my CNY visiting will be boring also.

actually my family also quite big hor?

if ask me to draw family tree,

I ask you go die first.haha.

like that also not very good leh.

I don't get to see most of my daddy side

unless I go Malaysia or they come down here.

so is like,

only get to see them every 3-4 years maybe?

sad right?

but in another way,

when go their area to travel,

can just stay their place,

then ask them bring me around.haha.

like for the Australia trip,

my relative at Gold Coast,

and so we happen to be going there in May,

can go find them 1 day and ask them

bring us around.

When I told my parents about it,

my mum seems more excited than I am.

which is kind of cute.haha.

everything has not been confirmed yet,

and she is already thinking of emailing them bout it.

cute rite?

someone even thought about bringing

our skates there.haha.

I hope is going to be fun though.

thinking about sharing rooms with your friends,

having fun with them for 7 days,

somemore it will be quite a far trip.

the furthest I have been with my classamates was Penang.

that time my mummy even tagged along,

then my friend de mummy also tagged,

so in the end the 4 of us shared an extremely

large room specially for us.haha.

that was like Primary 6 i think.

I only remember the parts where we played

games at the beach near our hotel.

but was quite fun.missed those days.

today is a boring day.

no visiting today, which can be a good thing.

can stay at home and watch CNY programmes.

just watch WQYL CNY 1st day programme,

and its super funny!

later go dl CNY eve de WQYL,

also quite funny i heard.

later will be watching

Millionaire's First Love.

A korean movie by Hyun Bin and

the pretty girl in

SiWon and HanGeng's MV

the 'Timeless' MV i meant.

she very pretty lor.

but in this show, she has short hair.

and I wanna know her acting skills.

that will be at 3.15pm later.

so passing my time by blogging

and looking for shows to dl.haha.

CNY EVE

CNY EVE

so fast CNY is here already.

so fast a year passes,

and now a begining of another year.

should I be looking forward to ang baos?

Considering the fact maybe we will

miss out 1 house visting this year,

dun know if I should look forward to it or not.

like no point also.haiz.

I become very money-minded hor?

haha.who is not at this moment of time?

guess what I feel like doing now?

you know when you open a new bedsheet?

then got the hard cardboard to keep

the bedsheet and all together?

i got 1 of it from my new bedsheet,

and when i saw it,

I thought it looked like some file.

Coz really look like those ring file.

then suddenly got this idea.

I the one who see something interesting,

then I will want to keep them.

thats why my drawers are full of junk.

all sorts of junk you can find in there.

and this time a ring file like cardboard?!

anyway, i thought of some use of it.

I was thinking of printing out

all the SuperJunior pics I have kept so far,

then paste them all over the cardboard.

is those type paste til you can't see the cardboard material.

cool huh?!

but then again,

I may think this way now,

but I may not do it another day.

Coz after all saying is easier than action mah.haha.

suddenly into listening to radio.

English FM radio.

maybe in serach for new songs?

haha.i lvoe to listen to music,

not only limiting to english or chinese.

I've got Korean, Japanese,

even a few Cantonese songs.

all the different genre you can find in my list too.

I don't limit myself to only listen to

certain type of songs.

as long as i find songs i like,

I'm a happy girl!!

I don't really follow artists to.

I meant follow their songs.

except for Super Junior of course.

If I like some idol,

I may not like their songs,

or vice versa.

I may like their style of music,

but I wouldn't force myself to like them

because of their nice songs.

Super Junior is different.

They have made me follow them

since last february?

woah.come to think of it,

i already follow them close to 1 year le.

time past so fast man.

so many things happen to them too.

Super Junior will forever be my Super Junior,

no matter what they do or did.

still thinking what to wear tml.

wear what leh?!

remember to visit my CY world blog ok?

really leave msg so I know you been there.

coz my other side like very deserted.

PS: my other happy family!!

Exams over?

Exams over?

exams are finally over ytd.

but like dun have the 'happy' mood.

firstly, i kept worrying about my shoe

throughout the day.

including when im doing my paper,

which made me sort of sour the whole day.

I just kept thinking about my shoe.

sian lo.

anyway, after exam when orchard

supposedly to do shopping.

in the end bought another slipper

to take over my shoe for the day.

felt so much better after that.

other than that like not much shopping.

people start asking whether want go out today.

but yup.I'm at home now.

really sorry if I gave you all a false impression.

didn't really want to go out today,

partly due to ytd.

anyway, the moment i woke up,

helped mum with her cooking for the big day.

then when market get some stuff.

then I was finally able to do something myself.

later think need to decorate the house.haiz.

currently busy burning DVDs.

whoel lot of things to burn.

burn til I wanna go cross-eye le.

I can't believe it's that hard to burn stuff.

realsied everything is in a mess,

went through them ytd,

manage to organise some of them,

but not able to do all.

too much le lar!!!

wait.i go and count the number of videos i have.

OMG.

aprox. 1,130 videos in my laptop AND ext. hard disk.

CRAZY!

750 of them belong to Super Junior.

cool huh?! NOT!

organising 750 videos will make me go crazy!!

lucky i got different folders.

if not really do til CNY also can't finish.

What was I doing for the past year?!

haiz.now my daddy sick le.

poor thing.

come back from Beijing then like that le.

Don't ever go there!!

haha.kidding lar.

later wp hack me into pieces.

anyway, think I will burn about

7 - 8 DVDs and CDs today.

will spend a while burning though.

thats why today stay at home.

I want to get it done ASAP.

then can come in new videos!!

haha.never-ending sia.

hopefully all will be well during CNY.

ppl! enjoy your holidays ok?!

don't take it for granted.!

in other words, don't be like me.

Happy Holidays!!

'Xuete!'

'Xuete!'

Love.

What is LOVE?

today is the day of LOVE.

got a lot of kinds of love actually.

Valentines' Day.

Going out makes me sick.

See all the couples on the streets,

all the red and pinks and whites,

having to think about it already sucks.

really envy those people with partners.

how is it like celebrating V Day

with someone you love?

always watch shows den know,

like so bliss.haha.

forget about V Day.

don't want to continue on this

stupid and useless topic.

anyway, today did BLAW paper,

and as usual,

kind of suck at it.

I calculated that I need at least

60/100 to get a C overall?

haha.actually don't hope so much.

can pass can le.

i wun ask to much of God.

tml paper seem a lot more relaxed.

up to now I still haven study it.haha.

(still dare to say.)

anyway after tml,

CAN PARTY LE!!!

can watch all the shows I want,

can go out and shop,

play, skate, do whatever all I want.

but then again,

if everyone around you starts

finding jobs for the holidays,

how are you going to party?

I don't want to work either.

Just really don't feel like it.

Had bad experience I guess.

When it comes to working,

I become very subjective.

'Xuete!'

new word of the week.haha.

guess some of you may know where it comes from,

and what it meant.

in case some of you don't watch TV,

it's from Ch 8 Mon-Fri 9pm show.

it simple means 'shit'.

you repeat it a few times,

then you will get it.haha.

fun right?!

see, stay at home watch TV also can be so fun.

don't need go out Celebrate V Day de lo.

can blog, can eat junk food (CNY goodies),

can sleep, can surf net etc.

home sweet home.

currently alone at home now.

mummy went to do her hair.

home alone can do what leh?

of course not studying!!

and hor, MTV Asia

suddenly got so many nice songs playing.

all the very long never see de MVs.

quite memorable.

now playing Backstreet Boys More Than That MV.

i watch first ar................

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finish.

Actually most of the BB songs are nice.

I still got their Greatest Hits Album.

so memorable.

I so long never buy Album le..haha.

The Corrs?!

All The Love In The Love Mv.

omg.think i know why le lar.

today V Day, they show all the love songs.

haiz.

see still got what nice songs.haha.

I like DJ leh.

see? alone at home also can become DJ.

sing along also can.

LALALALALA!!!

mummy called.

say she finish her hair le.

ask me want anything to eat.

haha.i told her egg tart.yum!

so she is coming home.

boring.

ok.next MV,

Robbie Williams ft Nicole Kidman

Something Stupid.

er...next song dunno what song.

quite long ago de.

sian.dun want to continue DJing le.

OMG!! I actually go type SJing just now!

quick quick!! let's go SJing now!!

SJ OPPAs, Happy Valentines' Day!!

Struggle

Struggle

Struggling between studying and watching shows.

It has always been this way since

I got my laptop in December.

This habit have been with me

since i joined NP.

like never-ending story,

there will always be new shows introduced.

see how the power of the internet today

can make people feel so helpless.

you get stucked in front of your laptop

surfing for anything under the tree.

Then you wounldn't have the mood

to do other more impt things like

studying before the exams.

This habit will continue for generations i guess.

who knows, maybe in the future,

there wouldn't be such thing like exams and tests.

maybe people don't even need to go to school anymore.

they can simply go online and study.

people become lazy to go out,

buying anything necessary online.

really sincerely hope all of you

will cherish whatever you have now.

including going to school and study.

there are still many people out there

without a school to go,

without a shelter over their head,

without proper food and water,

without proper medications.

some don't even have the chance to

open their eyes and see the world.

while others willingly sacriface their lives

to save others.

forget all the past that has brought you down.

forget all the mistakes you made,

and look forward to the future.

remember the good times only,

wipe away the bad ones.

throw away all your bad relationships

you have had before,

and look forward to new ones.

no matter how difficult you find

living in this world to be,

keep smiling and

pick up from where you fall.

when times are bad,

find a friend to confide in,

don't close up yourself from the world

and only think about committing suicide.

life is precious,

even if you don't believe it.

people die everyday,

someday you will too.

why not look forward to everyday,

and live each day to the fullest.

go have fun with friends,

hanging out at shopping centres,

playing at the arcade,

or even inviting friends over

and cook a meal for them.

if you have the resources,

go and explore the world.

don't coop yourself at home,

and do nothing.

don't be afraid to do things,

don't be afraid to explore.

we only have 1 life.

haiz.was supposed to study now.

in the end came up with all this thoughts.

I'm a scorpion.

scorpions are famous for their deep thoughts.

they can think of anything at anytime.

somemore let me listen to this song,

I got even more thoughts coming.

I look at the lyrics everyday,

seems able to discover new things everyday.

everything in life is meaningful,

just that we never stopped and notice.

I seem to sidetrack a lot lately.

never been able to concentrate on studying.

I always ask people online if they were studying,

but in a way I'm getting feedback.

I mentioned before I go with the majority.

I get these feedback,

then decide if I wanted to study or not.

I rely a lot on my friends.

the way they think or act or talk,

I feel like I should be like tat too.

anyway, on a lighter note,

I started a CY world.

(yup, the one like Hangeng's)

It actually originated from Korea,

as a famous Korea blogging world.

then CY of other countries start springing up.

I decided to go with the Taiwan one

and started a CY of my own in chinese.

It was thorugh much difficulty,

the most difficult would be to blog in chinese.

therefore, my posts there are REALLY short.

my chinese is not good anyway.

the website:

http://tw.cyworld.com/sapphireblue

do leave a tag when you visit it.

in chinese preferably.