Heart-pounding

Heart-pounding

12 more days and counting.

My heart seems to pound faster everyday.

What will it be like?

6 more days and counting.

How will it be like?

Entertaining?

Will I see you?

Countless days left.

When will you arrive?

Countless years coming.

When will I find you?

Dreamless nights.

How will you find your way through?

Within the next month.

When will I have the time

and mood for you?

Within this week.

When will you finally get better?

Within this day.

When will you get done?

Within tonight.

Will I ever see you?

Right now.

Everything is so unpredictable.

Who?

What?

Where?

When?

Why?

How?

Endless questions to be asked,

where none can be answered.

heart-warming

heart-warming

suddenly thought of this title.

Dun ask me why either.

my relatives just left my house.

Heard more is coming in 2 wks time.

Then expecting another one in Oct.

My mum will be super busy.

Hope she can take it.

Having butterflies in my tummy now.

For some reason,

everytime I think about something,

I get excited.

Really thinking alot lately.

Good or bad.

Everything just come.

Some came and went,

others remained in my mind.

It's also good and bad.

Anyway, will be waiting for next week to come.

Then come the following week.

How is it going to be like?

Feel like I got 2 personalities.

One at home,

and 1 outside with friends.

Starting to hate the difference.

Why like that leh?!

Dreaming alot lately too.

And is those day-dream type.

Alot of imaginations going on.

Especially at home or on the bus.

Throat is getting more irritating too.

Want to sing along,

but it hurts so much.

To the point I even dread drinking water.

It really hurts.

Man.The word 'hurts' really hit me hard.

Making me think of those sad things again.

I better stop 'hurting'.

Listening to Cao Ge 'Bei Pan'

isn't helping either.

Waiting for my album.

Doesn't want to come.

Now thinking of getting another one.

Really want to hear him sing so badly.

SJ just performed another new song.

Wonder Boy.

Theme song fro their movie.

Really proud of Kibum.

He really did it well.

I will be waiting for the day

he really becomes an idol.

Im guessing that will be around my 21st bdae.

Jia You Kibum!!

I want to hear you so badly,

waiting day by day.

I want to see you so badly,

but I have to control myself.

All I want is for you to be happy,

and smiling everyday.

Choices

Choices

So many choices to make.

All come at once.

Should I be doing hw,

or watching bbt?

Should I be switching the Ch,

to avoid seeing some things?

Did we make a wrong choice?

Did it all happen like this

because of us?

Did I have a choice of what to eat?

Is a bowl of soup so hard to make?

Is it that difficult to compromise?

Did I have a choice to fall sick?

Did it occur that the medicine was of no use?

Do I have a choice to continue to be sick?

Do I have a choice of

which parcel came first?

Do I have to make things clear

in order for people to care about me?

Do I have a choice to cry now

while listening to my blog song?

Do I need to watch a movie

that involves me crying

so discretely?

Do I have a choice if my bro

doesn't want to have a good chat with me?

Do I have a choice to get envious

of friends getting along well with their siblings?

Is life really THAT fragile?

Feeling SUPER hopeless and breathless now.

No idea what's going tru my mind now.

But I had a good cry.

I think.

Arrival of the Precious

Arrival of the Precious

Ok.kind of a weird title.

Totally different from my prev post.

Anyway,

I guess you all know what I meant.

Look out for pictures!

Arrival of the Precious.

Translate to: My parcel has arrived!

Only one of the two.

(Wonder when the other one is coming?)

Actually,

was kind of looking forward

to FT Island's CD.

I hoped it came first.

BUT.SJ came in first.

It just wanted to remind me,

SJ still comes first.

HAHA.lame.I get it.

Onto the main topic.

Bell rang at 5.45pm.

Me: Sitting in the living room.

Thoughts: Totally forgetting about the parcels.

As I have told Jean just now,

the more I wished it came earlier,

the more it won't want to come.

So, I wasn't thinking it would come today.

Well, at least after I came back from school.

Fearing the postman might just

ring the door bell in the morning,

I woke up at 9am.

Wednesday also like that.

1pm class, 8+am wake up.

I was thinking too much.

But how not too?!

I missed the previous delivery ok?!

The postman wrote on the collection paper

that he came in the morning,

but nobody opened the door.

I remember myself being in the house the whole morning.

So, didn't know he came.

In the end had to head down

to the nearest post office to collect.

Had to take the bus home with

2 big roles of heavy thing.haha.

(Remeber the 2 SJ calendar I first bought?)

Anyway, back to the topic.

Didn't expect it to come.

But on instinct,

when to take a peak at the door.

Realise it wasn't someone we know,

then the person looked more

and more like a postman.

Then it hit me.BANG.

'MY PARCEL HAS ARRIVED'

I quickly went to the door,

and saw the big parcel.

I knew which order it was already.

Signed the necessary paper,

then off I carried the parcel to the living room.

Erm.I got too eager to open it,

that I forgot to take a pic of the outside.

So the picture below is a cut out version.

I pieced them back together.haha.

The first thing I saw was this.

Haha.they were all covered with the bubble wrapping,

but the pink was too striking at the corner.

There were alot of bubble wrap too.

The next 2 stuff was bundled together.

The DBSK wallpaper was HUGE.

You can see the magazine is like 1/8 of it.

Somemore got their signature.

Or at least their 'printed' autograph.

But still they sign de lor.haha.

The 2nd one is obvious.

SJ 2007 organiser.

I purposely flipped to Kibum de page.

HAHA.so cute~~!

But a little disappointed with the organiser.

Not as good quality as I thought.

Somemore its the most expensive also.

I think not worth.haha.

I want my FT Island CD now!!!

IDEAL

IDEAL

I have found an ideal person.

Seriously, haven't met anyone

like him or close to him before.

I know this sounds weird,

but bear with me.

One fateful day,

I chanced upon him.

He came out with his best look,

and look really serious and happy.

Didn't take much notice in him

til he presented himself

in front of me.

He has that particular charm,

whatever he say or do

just kept me even closer to him.

He may not be good looking,

but every single thing he does

makes him a very charming guy.

First impression:

Tall, stylish, good dress sense.

Then he came out with a smile,

a very pleasing and warm one.

He can sing AND dance.

One point I like.

I can also tell

he is a romantic kind of person.

Which I like too.

He is into Korean pop,

just like me.

Shinhwa, DBSK,

are groups I look at too.

What he wanted to do most

is exactly what I want to do in my lifetime.

To travel around the world.

We have got things in common,

he has got stuff I look for in an ideal guy.

Everything seems to fit in so perfectly,

it makes it feel so unreal.

The more he fits my ideal guy image,

the more insecure I feel.

In fact, I'm really surprised.

Couldn't find anyone as close as him.

Thought my standards were a little too high.

But he seem to have appeared out if nowhere,

and caught me by surprise.

The fact that such a person
like him that I look for DO exist,
I'm satisfied.
At least he let me know that
I'm not dreaming.

So near yet so far.

When are you coming?!

Shipped!

Shipped!

My items were officially shipped

on the 20th July 2007.

DVDHeaven - 9.40am

Yesasia - 7.00pm

FAST right?!

Just one day after I ordered the stuff.

I SHOULD be getting them

either tomorrow or tuesday.

Hopefully is within those 2 days.

Coz I can't WAIT!!!

Another thing,

went to find the translation of

the song on my blog,

FIRST KISS.

Found it meaningful and thoughtful.

Sweet too.

Here it is.

Could I be as amazing as the movies

with that girl, the first kiss

I think I'll meet her again tomorrow

why is my heart already beating fast

and it feels like it's going to explode.

I wonder if it will be like cotton-candy

I close my eyes and wonder

if the girl is thinking the same.

I think it will be sweet like candy

I also think that the aroma will be like that of a flower

I might get drunk off the aroma

that’s what I’m worried about.

But more than that, the bigger worry is,

though many may not believe,

honestly, I have never kissed anyone.

Should I turn my head like in the movies?

How should I breathe after the kiss?

That also worries me

when should I close my eyes, and how should my nose be placed

how long should it be

I don’t know

If you were sweet like candy

then I will stay like that for a long time

even if I become drunk off your lips, I will stay up

I’m afraid that you might not like me

so I will confess first

honestly, this kiss is my first.

It has been a while since I have been staying up with those worries

finally, we kissed on a long night

sweeter than a lemon, I couldn’t move from that position

I was happy I became frozen

that girl was thankful and it was a relief

I will promise, I will forever only kiss you

I will only kiss you...

Sweeeeeeeet right?!

Oh man, I LOVE this song!

Makes me wonder,

when am I going to have my first kiss?

Will it be that sweet too?

I just realised,

when I see people laugh at my jokes or lameness,

I feel happy.

Now I know,

my job is to make people laugh.

Seeing them laugh,

it really makes my world.

~Latest~

~Latest~

yoyoyo~~!

I'm a VERY happy girl for now.

Don't add in the project works though.

Not going to mention any here.

There aren't making me happy.

The thing is,

I'm finally getting my goods~!

What goods you want to know?

well, will tell you guys more

WHEN I do get it.

For now,

I just ordered it online

through my dad's CC.

But it will be taken off from my

next month allowance.

BUT I'm still happy~~!

Finally getting the SJ Schedule Calendar!

Though its already halfway tru 2007,

I still want to keep!

At first wanted to buy,

but coz it costs $30++ for just

a organiser full of them,

was thinking is it too ex.

So at first only bought their hanging calendars,

both versions somemore.

add up to $70+ le lor..

so that time dun plan to add anymore stuff.

Now i was thinking.

Why stop at buying their hanging calendars?

So...I decided to get the organiser

before it runs out!

Could only see the scans from forum.

Couldn't touch and feel~~

NOW CAN!!

Anyway, the organiser is 1st item.

2nd item: S Magazine.

Most of you won't know bout this mag.

Ok. Think you ALL don't know.

It's only sold in Korea,

and it JUST started.

I'm buying their first issue.

(yet they coming out 2nd issue,

with SJ as cover!!)

S Magazine.

It's the sort of official mag for

SM Entertainment.

Yup...SJ's company.

1st issue had DBSK as cover.

Now you know why I want to get this.

And its not cheap too.

They selling about S$10 there.

Crazy but worthwhile.haha.

3rd item: SJ-T water bottle.

OK.I just got my xiaoyu bottle,

haven't really used it,

now I'm getting SJ-T bottle.

BUT! I tell you it's worth!

At least I'm not crazy to buy

ALL the different kinds of bottle ok.

They got 3 dif types of bottle,

I only chose 1.

Good enough I thought.

now i got both xiaoyu & SJ-T bottle~

life couldn't get better~~!

4th and last item:

FT Island's First Album

'Cheerful Sensibility'

It's really worth buying.

I like their songs,

love their voices,

kind of my type of style.haha.

Looking forward to seeing this album.

Dunno how it will look like.

Coz so far SJ CDs are all asian or tw version.

So got chinese words here and there.

FT Island is new,

so haven break into chinese market YET.

So their album is ORIGINAL, korean.

That will be my VERY first 100% KOREAN CD!

Actually want to get the SJ-T

original KOREAN CD also,

but then the amount I bought

is like over S$100 le.

Thinking maybe next time.

Buy together with S Mag issue 2~!

I can't wait~!!

Allowance next month:

$200 $100

I CAN SURVIVE!

Items to come:

4 and priceless.

I WILL SURVIVE!

can't wait can't wait can't wait

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Sorry

Sorry

Just want to say,

I'm sorry for what I've mentioned ytd.

Like abit hurting.

Just don't care about it.

Forget all about it.

They are just my personal thoughts.

Didn't want to tarnish anyone or anything.

Anyway, I can blog whatever I want here,

since it's meant for my own reading pleasure.

You all viewing my blog can

just take it as a remark

and don't take it too seriously.

Alot of things going through my mind lately,

So you might see alot of

weird and thought-full posts.

Don't be surprised.

It IS my blog.

Confession

Confession

I've got a confession to make.

I never liked to shop at Bugis Village.

I can't stand myself also.

But all I know is,

I always feel so moody

after coming out of THAT place.

I also dunno why,

very complicated also.

Is like, once I enter,

already start to feel gloomy le.

I don't really like to shop

in that area for some reason.

Maybe coz is kind of crowded and squeezy.

And + I DON'T like crowded places.

Especially shopping in a crowded place.

I will spend most of my time

trying not to block the other ppl's way,

trying to find a good spot

to avoid these ppl.

In Bugis Village,

I can never get to shop in peace.

I tend to become really quiet.

Most of the time will

only window shop,

or watch my friends shop.

Alot of clothes staring at me also,

feel the stress ar.

Saw quite a few nice ones,

but never went for further look.

I don't like ppl waiting for me.

Maybe I'm not cut out for shopping.

Sometimes really feel like shopping alone,

but then will feel super lonely.

And also will always try to go

at a non-peak period.

HAHA.funny right?

Don't ask me why.

I also dunno why like tat.

Whatever it is,

it has nothing to do with Bugis Village's products.

They have nice and cheap products,

I just don't like that area 'space'.

And, I also hate it

when I come home empty-handed.!

Another thing is,

being sick has another bad thing.

you want to talk also so hard.

Then sick til no mood to shop also.

No mood to even talk

or entertain friends.

That's where I prefer to stay at home,

and watch shows all day~!

HOOT~~!!

WP IS BACK~~!!!
OFFICIALLY!!!

Triple Bed

Triple Bed

Apparently, I'll be sleeping on 3 beds.
for...4 nights.

show you the picture later.
Tell you the details now.

My malaysian relative will be coming next week,

so my mum don't intend to change the bedsheet,

so, she placed my temporary mattress

on top of a another mattress.

You will understand better when you see the pic.

Coz new relative come,

then need put new bedsheets mah.

Then my mum don't want the extra work load,

so she just place another mattress on top

of my bed,

then my temporary mattress on top.

So wun dirty my original bed de WHITE cover.

So is triple bed!!

So high lar..

later I fall off the bed while dreaming~~

SIAO LIAO!!

This is my collection so far...

coz only July 2007...

so only paste til July.haha.

nice right?!

The spacing also just nice lor!!

LOVE SUPER JUNIOR~~!

Anyway, my London relatives left around 5pm,

and they even bought RAFFLES handmade chocolates!

haha...apparently,

they have been going to Raffles Hotel

for their lunch for 2 days.

My uncle say my cousin got expensive taste.

Now I know what he meant.haha.

And my cousin loves drinking beer.

Have to have at least a drink of it every meal.

He sure knows how to enjoy~~

My uncle once mention as a joke,

the airplane needs to have

enough beer to satisfy my cousin.haha.!

My uncle even mention that

when my aunty ain't around in London,

he needs to take at least a few hours

just to cook a 4 dish meal.

And my cousin does not

contribute to anything at all.

The way he say is so funny.!

Then he also say they now know

the importance of my aunty.

And that my Aunty always have to be

there to make sure they catch the flight

and remember all their bags and luggages.

Haha...he say til they

really will die without my Aunty.

CUTE.

WP COMING BACK ON SUNDAY!

WWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Hostel

Hostel

My house has officially became

a hostel since we first moved in.

Relatives have been coming to our house

to stay overnight.

I'm not complaining or anything,

just that...

when a big family comes,

they will take up my room.

Coz my room happen to be the most spacious,

can tell straight away.

Sometimes, if they stay real long,

I can't have the comfort of my room,

of being alone in my room.

I always get stuck in my bro's room.

Of course I don't mind them coming,

just that sometimes they stay 'too' long,

I start grumbling & complaining,

there's where you will see me

outside most of the time.

One good point is that MOST of them,

will leave behind some 'ang bao',

either as a token for letting my room to them,

or just a little gift for both me and bro.

Right now,

my relative from London is here to stay for 2 nights,

leaving on friday.

Actually is my Aunty's husband and son.

My Aunty currently in Malaysia,

after attending my grandparents' dinner last tuesday.

The 2 of them are here to stop-over,

then flying to meet my Aunty on friday.

The thing tat surprised me most was,

how people, especially teens and kids,

change after not seeing them for just 2 or 3 years.

My cousin came in with long British-punkish type of hair,

and with his guitar.

I didn't see all this when they came our house

a few years back.haha.

But he is still the same,

likes to eat alot too.haha.

Quite interesting actually,

how time can change a person so quickly.

Anyway, feel quite proud of my house sometimes.

Like a place where I can get to know

my relatives who live abroad better.

Living under one roof,

eating at the same table,

sleeping in the same house,

talking and laughing...

sometimes its interesting what they say.

I actually enjoy my uncle's talking.

He likes to talk,

about anything he can think of.

Sometimes he is funny too.cute.haha.

My uncle is a british,

so my mum was quite afraid she

wouldn't understand his slang.

But I think it wasn't too bad.haha.

Anyway, finding a spot to use my laptop

whenever relatives come is a BOTHER.

First of all,

my bro will be in his room,

my room taken up,

dinning table taken up,

like only left a few spots with PLUG lor.

Abit like finding PLUGs in school sia.

CAN'T BELIEVE WP IS COMING BACK

IN 4 DAYS' TIME!!

HOOOORAYYYY~~~~~~~!!

PIG alert

PIG alert

omg.feel like a pig now.

slept at 2am last night,

woke up at 9+ but continued to sleep.

woke up again around 10+,

also continued to sleep.

so sleep til 1pm then wake up lor!

SIAN AR~~!!

Feel like a pig lor.

Knowing today got no classes,

but I sort of slept my class time away le.

Feel like its the same as I just came home from classes.

Anyway have been having headaches these days.

I also dunno why.

Now also having abit.

Everytime take bus 52 to sch or back home,

always will feel giddy and sometimes feel like vomiting.

Always have to control til I get off the bus,

where the giddyness still continues at home.

Suddenly feel so old also.

Seeing all the 'young' and 'energetic' ppl last night,

feel I'm much older than them.

Realise we got quite alot of juniors in ISAN,

and for some reason or another,

almost all the seniors came.

Even those you have never seen for a VERY long time came.

Quite surprised at that.

Then of course there will be some people that have changed.

Be it to good or bad,

its up to other ppl to observe.

As long as you think you have

changed for the better,

then dun mind me.

Last night, was KIND of enoyable?

Actually was quite weird.

Me and my friends felt outcasted,

to the point we even feel that maybe the

inline-skaters are more friendlier.

Sometimes it bothers me.

Do ISAN ppl actually approach you because

they want to talk to you,

or because they just felt like socializing,

so they pick ppl to talk to?

Sorry if I'm being kind of rude.

I even mentioned to my friends why

they think inline-skating will be more fun

and enjoyable.

I said: "Maybe because the rink is the cold environment,

that it makes people look cool and unsocializable.

Like people prefer to be alone in those situation.

Whereas for inline skating,

you are outdoors almost everytime.

You get the heat and sun,

thus you look more outgoing and socializable too."

Does it make any sense to you ppl?

Didn't know they were so closed.

Thought all the while they didn't talk much to each other de.

So sweet.

DARN.

When are we ever going to have time

to complete THE book?!!

Mistake~!

Mistake~!

I made a mistake!!

It was my grandparents'

70TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!

not 60th!!!

70 is like..very long lar!!

Anyway they going to 90 le..

amazing right?

The thing I can't believe is,

the WONG family picture

was even on the newspaper the next day!

I meant in Malaysia de newspaper.

So proud of my WONG family..haha!

Seeing the family photo really make me so sad,

sad that I couldn't be there to witness it.

Sad I wasn't able to see my other cousins,

nephews and nieces.

What I like about my family,

is that, we have 4 generations still living.

Which means,

my grandparents now have great grandchildrens too!

And its not only 1,

but so far got 10!!

10 great grandkids and counting for them leh..

so xin fu~~~!

my granddad even did a family tree,

of the family members so far.

Latest addition was my niece born last year.

and that was the 39th generation.

Mine was the 38th generation.

The family tree booklet compiled

the 36th (my grandparents) all the way

to 39th (my nephews and nieces)

all the birthdates and names.
Dunno how my granddad did it,

but it was done amazingly.

And every family was able to get 1 copy.

my grandparents~~

I can say my dad's family is HUGE.

The WONG family.

The dinner comprises of about 50 tables,

costed at least tens of thousands,
including cakes,

and they even booked a salon & manicure place

for the ladies to dress up for the dinner.

THE EVENT WAS HUGE.

SERIOUSLY.

My dad and his 4 other brothers

all stood at the entrance to greet guests.

Whereas the ladies all

guided guests to their tables.

Everytime had to be done themselves.

With 50 tables,

you could imagine the amount of ppl coming in.

Heard my mum say my grandma was pretty,

with make-up and high heels.

So cute...

she NEVER put on make-up and high heels de.

Then she like got complain..haha!

And my granddad made a very touching and good speech.

My mum said that my dad and uncle

all told my granddad not to see too much

from e paper of what to say,

coz its VERY long.

Then my granddad so li hai.

He go and memorise the stuff,

then say til very smooth~~!

haha..also very cute~~!!

They got take videos and pictures,

but its not out yet.haha.

I want see!~!

And I just found out,

I'm the only 1988 in the WONG family,

and I'm also the youngest LADY in my generation.

Don't count the guys in lar.haha.

So cool.I add specialty to myself.haha!

OMG OMG!!!

guess what?!

LATEST!

my DAD found my mini SD adapter,

my MUM found my......

...SJ CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

(got 13 '!' you know?)

OMG OMG!!!

I LOVE THEM SOOOO VERY MUCH~~~!!!

THIS HOUSE BECOMES MEANINGLESS W/O THEM!

I love you~~!!

SARANG HAEYO~~!!

AIESHITERU~~!!

Something extra..

and..newest addition to my SJ CDs~

Never will I anyhow put them AGAIN!