Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Personal blog

Personal blog

Getting lesser and lesser to write here,
as more and more ppl come
and read this blog.
I'm starting to wonder...
isn't blog something like a diary?
Like a personal diary?

I feel that some stuff
should be kept to oneself.
As things I write may hurt ppl's feelings.
It is also good if you wanna write secrets.
Stuff you don't want ppl to know about u.

Blogging here becomes -
selective blogging.
You actually need to reconsider
the stuff you blog.
By the time you reconsider,
maybe you don't even need to blog at all.

Just my personal feeling,
some ppl prefer to let others see their 'diary'.
Of course it is so much easier
and faster to blog than to write.
Blogs start to become like your personal website,
where you introduce to ppl
whom you want them to see your blog.

Should I actually start another personal blog?
Soooo personal til only I can see?
But then again,
if I actually started one,
my this blog here will get lesser and lesser posts,
til no more posts.
It's hard to maintain 2 blogs.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Wo Ai Bang Bang Tang!

Wo Ai Bang Bang Tang!

Woah.
seriously crazy over bbt (for short) now.
been watching them non-stop everyday!
Their latest performance was totally amazing.

Just to point out a few performances,
those that I think are nice,
but you ppl who do not know bbt in the first place
may not really understand.
Coz first of all,
you don't know them.
It takes time to know them all la.
Especially their names.
All 16 of them.
Now got 4 more new ppl add in to form 20.
However, not all are good.

Their latest episode was the Ping2 Bi3.
In other words,
they compete with each other with anything
they want to perform,
and the top 3 goes away with prizes.

The performances that I found nice were:
by Wei1 Lian2 (chinese for William?)
MY personal favourite,
by Xiao2 Yu4 & Xiao3 Jie2
(It's All About You, McFly song)
LAST but not least,
another of my favourite perf,
by Ao2 Quan3!!
(you wouldn't really understand this if you
didn't know the people involved well.)

5 nice and interesting videos.
Can hold one person up for at least 30 mins bah!
So go and see!
Oh ya, another important thing!
The top 3 happen to be in the list as well!
So go and guess the top 3 bah~
Don't play cheat ok?!

And I would like to apologise,
if I was too harsh on my previous post.
Don't take it too seriously,
I just wanted some place
to let out my anger, that's all!
I'm pretty fine now. Thanks!


How I love Bang Bang Tang~
AND my SUPER JUNIOR~~!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Thoughtless creatures

Thoughtless creatures

feeling quite pissed now,
want to find someone to let out,
eventually came to find my blog.

I don't understand some people.
When the majority have agreed to something,
shouldn't you also abid to it?
Even if you are on the minority side,
face the fact.
The majority wins.
Just blame yourself for not agreeing for some reason.

you got to spare a thought for others too you know.
There are a number out there that wants to stay as a class,
but for some stupid reason,
you actually took other ppl's slot.
Making them helpless.
What the f*ck were you thinking?!
Just coz you don't agree doesn't mean you can
take away other ppl's slot right?!
I call these ppl SELFISH.

Feeling super helpless now.
Want to help but dunno how to.
I admit I'm not that brave enough to give up my slot,
but I'm willing to do anything else.

in the first place,
this whole thing SHOULDN'T have been made.
Who in the right mind would want to seperate
from their class for the last year
and join some class you never knew b4?
Even if there were these 'hateful' ppl,
the majority still wants to stay as a class.
So what if another class timetable is better?
Doesn't mean you can just take the slot.
Does that mean that ending early is much impt
than being in your same class
for the last few months?

Come on lar,
you wouldn't be able to work well with the new class either.
Why not just stick to the old one?
It's just another few months, man.
Whatever misunderstanding and miscommunications
should just be written over and forgotten.
You should be happy that all of you
spent such a great time together as a class.
Why would you want to disrupt this peace and harmony
of another class?

Lots of things I still wanna add.
But I scared I will start pin-pointing ppl out.
Anyway, this stupid time-table choosing
is useless and pointless.
there are only 3 classes for heaven sake.
Why can't you just let us be at peace
with our old class for the next few months?!
Tell me, what is the point of this f*cking arrangement?!

Feel like going on strike.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Title-less

Title-less

totally no idea what title to put.
totally clueless.

anyway,
i see very long never update le,
so felt like updating.
today has been a fruitful day.
i seem to have found my
passion for watching shows again.

Woke up to nice breakfast
prepared by my mum.
(very rarely done actually)
Then went to my laptop for the whole day.
Actually,
ytd, asked my daddy to apply for new cable ch.
I had to give up 20+ Ch
just to get the 1 Ch i wanted,
and it came together with 5 other Ch.
(5 other useless Ch to be exact)
I was super happy when I got the Ch,
but then again,
someone will hack me into pieces.

Luckily the Ch I chose to give up,
seem to be quite deserted ones,
but I also got watch de lo!
My heart a little pain
when I had to give the whole lot up.
(Coz they came as a whole group.)
They don't sell individual Ch de.
Bad right?! haiz.

now that got a new form of entertainment,
I suddenly felt the vibe of watching shows again.
I started with Hana2,
which officially aired its last episode last friday,
and I already watched all the remaining epi le.
Of course got happy ending,
in fact, a very happy ending.haha.
Overall,
the show was amazingly nice.
All the tears, anger, laughter it brought to me,
I really enjoyed it.
Never really let me down.haha.

Now that Hana2 has ended,
I actually got 2 more new shows.
both are taiwan shows.
1. Fang Yang De Xing Xing (My Lucky Star)
2. Re Qing Xia Zhong
Haven watched the no.2 de,
but hopefully is nice.

Watched another 2 more Korean variety shows
that of course has got SJ in it.
(If not I wouldn't have dled them.)
Very funny,
and at the same time really sad.
Coz got this girl,
She was born blind.
She is now 5 years old,
but she can already play the piano.
She was 3 yrs old when she first heard her mum
sing some song,
then she memorised the tune
and played it on the paino.
She didn't even have any paino lessons AT ALL.
Though sometimes the key abit off,
but overall,
its amazing how she does it.
Heechul was already crying even before the girl played.
He just continue tearing up,
poor thing.
Another amazing thing is,
her mum,
is not even her biological mum too.
Her mum really very 'Wei Da'
All the celebrities were saying how
the girl needs to find a teacher willing to
teach her into a world-class pianist.
So Sweet~~
You go girl!!

I think my throat is acting up again.
Oh man, just when I thought can get pass
this holiday with no sickness,
they come and attack me.haiz.
Can't eat junk food le.sianz.

WP is in china now,
seriously enjoying herself there.
Really envy her sia.
Can buy all the cheap stuff.
She bought countless items for me le.
Including SJ mag,
thats why I wanna say,
'I LOVE YOU~!'
jia you! wp fighting!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Fate

Fate

Can't believe you actually appeared
in front of me.
Caught me off-guard,
and overly excited throughout.

Fate is such an amazing thing.
It also includes the fate of me
re-playing games that I have long stopped years ago.
Now that I have found new stuff to play,
I'm less interested in my laptop.
Until I actually 'crashed' it myself.
oopx.

anyway, sorry laptop!
But I still think your time is coming up.
haha.

As mentioned just now,
I get less interested in the internet.
So I admit,
Haven't been to my friends' blogs in days.
Pardon my 'huh-ness' if you all start
mentioning about blog stuff.haha.

Anyway, Super Junior
will always be my motivation.
They always seem to be able to keep
me intact with my laptop.
Without them,
seriously,
I wouldn't have 'communicated'
with my laptop so often.

That's fate too I guess.
Fate that brought me to them,
Brought them to my attention.
Fate to listen to new songs,
and start to pay attention to new group of people.
Fate of meeting the special one.
Fate of meeting people
I wouldn't have thought of meeting.

People always say,
"Leave it all to fate!"
I too believe so.
or "Let nature take its course."
If we are not fated to be together,
then no point brooding over it.
If some things are not meant to be yours,
don't be stubborn and hang onto it.
Let go, and you will probably
meet someone else even better.
No point crying over spilled milk.

Flipping through my picture folder,
I actually found lots of celebrity guys
I once fancied.
And, they still look so HOT and CUTE!
I guess part of me living in this world
is to ogle at HOT and CUTE guys!
What a way to be living in.haiz.

But then again, it's perfectly normal.
Just like a normal ordinary human girl.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Restless

Restless

realised haven been blogging for almost a week.
there was practically nothing to blog about.
suddenly find my laptop so boring.
would rather watch TV then surf the net.
suddenly the TV excits me more.
I wonder why.

dling videos has also taken its toll.
I have been trying hard to find something to dl,
or something to watch.
Almost every night come up with nth.
I have also stopped watching many shows halfway,
not really wanting to watch onwards.
Like got no kick out of watching.

Even shows that I once thought was exciting,
it all became dull and boring.
I just didn't have the motivation to carry on.
Sites that I go to every single day
becomes increasingly boring.
Just didn't have it.

sleeping early is also another sign of restless.
since I cut down my number of hrs on my laptop,
I have been sleeping really early and a LOT.
I can get to bed after watching wqyl
which finishes at 11pm.
the next morning I would probably
wake up around 9+ and lay in bed til 11am.

With the recent invasion of mosquitos in my room,
I find it even harder to sleep.
I will always be scratching my way to sleep,
or covering my WHOLE body including my head
with my blanket.
Of course, due to the unbearable heat,
I still couldn't get to sleep.
Luckily, with the help of some spray,
my room was rid of mosquitos,
I would say for the time-being.

finally stepped out of house ytd to East Coast.
Went to cycle for 2 hrs,
shop for another 3hrs,
and was already on the way home.
reach home to realise nobody bought my dinner,
so had to settle with instant noodles.

woke up this morning to double pain.
1st pain was the aches and the terrible fall from biking.
A few spots became blue-black,
while some are beginning to skin-peel.
the other pain, you wouldn't want to know.
It's a girl thing.
Another bad sign was my throat.
Was a little sore since last night,
and now it seems a little better.

Though slept quite a lot last night,
still can't help but to feel restless now.
The pain from everywhere just forces me to go sleep.
I must resist the temptation.
And I will.

I suddenly remembered.
Super Junior is performing later.
I can actually watch them perform online.
I will actually be watching them at the SAME time
as the show being aired in KOREA.
How fun could that be?!

Suddenly got my kick back.
haha.
but I still think I'm about to get sick.

I couldn't help but to look out for you.
Every potential moment
seem to put a spark of hope in me.
Shit.

Monday, March 05, 2007

SUCKS!

SUCKS!

Hua Yang ending SUCKS to the core!
What sort of ending is that?!
Kao.make me wait excitedly for it.
In the END?!!
My whole mind was OSing:
"That's It?! That's It?!"

I don't want to say anymore.
Go watch and you will know.
Hopefully there will be a 2nd part.

btw, ZJYB is coming out their 2nd part!!
The long awaited part!!
But its a little different.
It's called "Zhong Ji Yi Jia"
Same 'Zhong Ji',
but 'Yi Jia' is 'one family' meaning.
weird but hopefully it will be as good.haha.

News

News

lots of new things to share.
basically, some good and some bad.

first of all,
got hold of wp's NEW hp no.
for the time being while she is in China.
at least can still get in touch with her,
free can still call or sms her.haha.

another thing is,
after the lizard incident,
I became more wary of my surrounding,
ESP my room.
sickening leh,
after that,
like got a lot of unwanted 'friends'
came visit my room.
I got rid of them 1 by 1 using my
NEW secret weapon.haha.
if you wan to know more,
can ask me.
I don't wan to scare my readers away here.

another thing is,
looks like I may be really able to go Taiwan.
Have been quite not keen for it,
coz I just came back from Korea last Oct.
Like a bit too fast to go another trip.
Didn't have the WANT factor also.
But since slogging at home,
I realise, it will be fun.haha.
besides, I don't think I will have this opportunity in time to come.
the thing is,
I'll be going to Australia in 2 months time to,
with the class of course.
It will be the first time I'm going abroad
for 2 times a year.
Actually haven't been abroad with my family of 4 in a LONG time le.
coz of the diff schedule between me and my bro,
we never seem to go on a trip together
since our Australia trip when I was 14.
Think my daddy planning to go on a trip
after my bro's O Lvl this year.
Dunno going where also.heez.

My motive of blogging at this timing
is because I waiting for Hua Yang to finish dling.
It's the last episode!!
Fast right?!
But I was writing halfway just now,
then the dl finish le.haha.
so will go watch it later.

Another thing is,
found another new song!!
Epik High - Fan.
When u hear Epik High,
like some really class name.
I mean, who would have thought to use such name
as their band name?
btw, it's a Korean boy group.
Trio to be exact.
Their songs also very special.
They do LOTS of rapping.
Especially this Fan song.
The MV is even more sickening.
This is the eng subbed version:
ENJOY!!

You want the song,
come find me!!

The only way to see you,
is to go to school more often.

Friday, March 02, 2007

Mixed Feelings

Mixed Feelings

As predicted,
didn't have too extreme of feelings just now.
Was totally 'calm?' and collected.
Just couldn't say anything when wp left.
Looking at her back moving further and further,
I didn't really have much of a feeling.

I will probably only feel her departure to China
maybe in a few days time.
Maybe even tml morning.
Feeling a little lost and empty now.

Got no other thoughts other than
the whole lizard situation.
Maybe I can sleep,
maybe I can't.
I might cry myself to sleep if I can't get to sleep.
That was how it has been for the past few days.
Really can't sleep, til I cried out.

Found this new song,
also from Hangeng's CY.
must be those fans give him de.
But, some are really nice.
This current song also hear from there de.
I might change the song soon,
when I feel like it.

5 months is long,
but our friendship will remain strong.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Dream Dream Dream

Dream Dream Dream

God, did I do anything wrong?
Did I do anything to deserve all this?
Did you send your msg through my dreams,
sending those unclear msg?!

It's weird how people say dreams come true.
Others say the opposite will come true.
To me, I don't believe in either.
But it forces me to believe with my own eyes.
Right under my feet.

Hadn't had dreams which I could stil remember for ages.
I quite admire people who had dreams while sleeping.
I had almost none, not that I could remember of.
Then suddenly, out of nowhere,
I had a dream!
the weird thing is, the next night,
I had a similar dream,
except...
it seems to be continious.
You know like how there is part 1 & 2?
Yup.my dream was something like that.

First night,
I dreamt 2 lizards appeared in my room.
1 seriously HUGE, and the other smaller one,
they seem to be together most of the time.
The 1st part wasn't that much to worry about,
except I thought it seems real when I woke up.

2nd night,
the 2 lizards appeared again!
This time, more action.
I decided to get my parents help to catch them.
We slowly closed into my room,
watching closely for them.
Then, I held onto the door side for support,
when I realise,
I touched something weird.
I looked at my hand,
and this lizard quickly crawled out.
The next moment I remember,
I already woke up from the shock.

But thinking it was just a dream,
I went back to sleep.
The next morning,
I kind of remembered my dream,
and I thought it was real.
I looked around,
realising it must have been a dream.
but the weird thing is,
having the dreams on 2 consecutive nights.

After that, I didn't have the dream anymore.
Come to think of it,
last night I think I heard the sound of lizard
while I was on my computer in my room.
I didn't think much of it then,
I just closed the door,
thinking it was outside.

JUST NOW,
I was watching shows as usual,
was getting a little excited,
so I 'jumped' around my room.
Who knows,
my big toe stepped onto something uneven to the floor.
I looked down,
and first thing I thought was some ball of thread.
Then my eyes caught onto something.
Something hopping about.
I realise it looked like a TAIL.

Then beside it,
I saw a lizard.
FREAK!
I quickly ran out of my room,
and kept looking at my toe.
The lizard tail continue to jump about awhile,
til it finally stopped.
But the body refused to give up.
It decided to jump about now and then.
It was a small and kind of black lizard.
Probably a baby one.

I felt like crying SO much.
Then my friend smsed me,
the hp was inside my room.
I took up so much courage to walk past it and pick up my hp,
and quickly ran out,
not forgetting to look onto the ground.
The first thing that came to mind,
was to let my mum catch it.
She was showering,
so I had to wait for her to finish.

She finally came out,
then I told her,
'Mum! I stepped on a lizard!'
on the verge of crying.
She started to laugh a bit,
then she helped me catch it.
She step onto one b4,
so she knows my feeling.

Although the lizard is gone now,
but I can't help but to look onto the ground now and then.
I wasn't looking,
thats why I stepped onto it.

my mum sure know how to scare me.
She said it probably came from the toilet.
I was showering just now,
coz I couldn't see properly while I was bathing,
I actually mistook some dust as another lizard.
The dust seem to be there for quite long le,
I actually convinced myself
it looked like a lizard.
idiot right?!

Beginning to become wary of the objects around me.
Really gave me a fright just now.
Wonder if I can ever fall asleep later.
Moral of the story:
NEVER EVER underestimate your dreams.

Wonder will I dream about something else,
wonder if I could ever dream about you?
Dream about meeting you...

Anyway, will be sending
wp off to china later.
She wun be officially back til mid-July.
Dunno when will I ever see her again
after tomorrow.
Wonder what kind of feelings
I will have later?
Mixture perhaps?