Random Stuff

I'm back! Slightly more cheery too. I admit I have been caught up with my other football site that I've neglected this a little. Anyway, allow me to announce my latest 'adventures'.

First of all, me and mum have been spending 'quality' time together, cooped up at home. Daddy is in China at this moment, gone since Monday, but will be back tonight. As such, me and mum prepared a list of items to buy at DFS. Women will be women. There's no need to mention about bro LC because he's in camp.

I actually quite enjoy the REALLY peaceful time between me and mum, even though we don't talk a lot as well. I watch my top Gear, she play her Facebook games. In fact, we probably talk more about what we are going to send each other as gifts for specific Facebook games. How bonding.

This MioStadium new channel on MioTV for the new football season is actually pretty impressive. Football is currently the most talked about sports? I mean, even in Singapore, you don't hear people discussing about the various YOG events, going through the highlights EVERY SINGLE DAY etc. There are SO MANY people out there ready to put in their opinions and thoughts on football talk shows. I don't see any for YOG.

I am a Singaporean, but I'm not paying too much attention to YOG. Sadly to say, football comes first in my life. Before I start to dwell on football again, let's just move on.

Saw reports of staff and volunteers getting food poisoning at the YOG. I mean, Singapore is a food paradise, yet we can't get proper food to our dear volunteers and even the atheletes? Not to mention the amount of money being pumped into YOG, or is the lack of it? That's definitely not the way to build our reputation at holding such huge events. food is as important as lodging you know.

Well, that's about it. Shall talk more the next time. Heez.

My Football Rants!

Here it is. I've officially opened a new blog, solely based on football!! Apparently I had an account over at WordPress, left there to rot because the dashboard stuff looked so complicating. I didn't have the motivation to check every link out 1 by 1. Now that I have that motivation, I've already set it up and also posted my first post!

Here's the link for now - Suju04. I've named it after my Twitter name too, easier I think. Haha... Anyway, in the future, if you people ever want to drop by and see once in a while, the link is located at the bottom under "Please Don't Leave" section, the one called 'My Football Rants'. I very efficient right? Sigh. If only I was this motivated to look for a job. Damn.

Alright, the first rant should come in very soon, I've only wrote up an introductory post there. For some reason, I seem quite professional there, no 'Haha' or Singlish. Interesting. I can be another person there. Haha...

Rant

Maybe I should set up a football opinion site for me to rant. I mean, sooner or later this blog will be filled with stuff football related, where most of my friends won't even understand. It's just getting thoughts off my mind, especially after seeing other people's rants.

This should be solely for personal blogging, while the other would be solely on football. Hmmm... interesting. Since I got the time, I shall search for a blog interface and start my other blog. Wow. I come here for the intention to rant, but I actually found a solution instead. Shall hurry go find one blog skin and start a new blog!!

Obviously this blog will still be around, non-football-related blogging. There... if I can find one fast, I may still find the urge to rant. Haha...

Oh, on a side note, I'm feeling really weird now. Too much burps and indigestion. NYNY is not a place for meals. Their portions are getting larger. Argh... why did I order a drink too?!

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I won't call myself a mental person, since I'm still pretty sane, able to count and talk and write etc. But I feel like I have problems. Mental problems. Stuff like talking to myself every day, having 2 split personalities, or even having too much thought cells to trigger tears.

I know most of it stem from me cooping myself at home all the time. But somehow, it runs deeper. Im not a very confident person to start off, I don't think there's a single event that triggered my low confidence. I refuse to get a job because im afriad of interviews, or meeting strangers. It's like they are questioning you in an alien language and you try your best to understand. I know I have the abilities, but I just don't know how to take that step.

Talking to myself has become part of the routine. I even have imaginary friends. Sometimes I tell them my worries and stuff, sometimes I dwell into my imaginary bank and think of all sorts of stories... ok, I beginning to freak myself out here too.

Split personalities I can take. I mean, people always say I 'talk' different when im on msn, or talking in person. You'll notice I talk alot more on msn, ok, make that type, and I talk alot less in front of people. There, I have people problems too. and I think I know why.

I'm so afraid of what people think of me, I might as well just shut up and listen. Or perhaps most of the time I wonder off in dreamland, pretending I understand what people are talking about. Laughing is easy, people laugh, you laugh along, don't really have to get what people are saying. I've learnt the art of reading facial expressions. Haha...

I have another example. Let's say I have a friend who dislikes some type of people. If I happen to have part of the trait, I try to change so my friend won't find me irritating. Ok, that's not a good example. Damn, I think people are going to get creeped out when they read this post. THIS IS ME. This is who I am deep inside. The one who would rather keep myself in my own room and cry my eye balls out, then come out and pretend nothing happened. "There was sand in my eyes."

Ok, was off ranting on my Twitter. I feel like crying now. Crap, this calls for SHINee's songs! iTunes hurry up open!!! Ahh... that's better. Im smiling now~~ Ok, back to the topic. I don't think anybody actually reads my blog also, they are all far too busy.

To be honest im glad I have Facebook games to keep me company. Is there a kind of job that allows me not to see anyone and still work and earn money? My mood always dampen when people BUG me about getting a job. Obviously, I won't tell them my problems, that's why they keep bugging. Irritating bugs. Please don't feel offended. I'm not in a good mood now. That's why SHINee came in to help me. For once I'm actually typing thoughts straight hot off my brain. I used to have... shit what's that word?! I used to have thoughts thought off because they can't appear here, now everything is coming out! Haha... this is fun.

Maybe I should end soon. My mind of filled with SHINee now, hard to continue this post.