Thursday, May 07, 2009

Frustation

Frustation

I don't understand.
Why do people criticise when they falter?
Why start raining criticism
when they got kicked out of the competition?
In the 1st place,
why even complement them before all this?!

Seriously, the media ppl are fickle-minded.
1 day they can say:
'He has proven they can make it',
'He has proven everyone wrong',
'His young side is brlliant' etc...
and once they lose?
'He better change his philosophy
or risk getting sacked',
'He should stop being stubborn
and bring in stars',
'They need to change manager soon' etc...

What the hell.
As a fan,
it saddens me that they failed to go to the finals.
I have no regrets or doubts.
Man Utd WERE better than my Arsenal.
That's something I can agree on.
What I can't,
is people, OUTSIDERS,
criticising them for not getting through.
It's like, once they get through,
they receive endless praises.
They fail,
the OUTSIDERS condemn them like no tml.

I also understand journalists have to be
objective to do their job well.
They need stuff to interest people.
But it pains me to learn they keep
testing the faith of the players,
kept asking them if they are going to stay or not.
I tell you,
if some of them DO leave, (touch wood)
I blame the MEDIA.

How many times must they come
out and say "I'm STAYING!"?
How many times do you want to hear
before you are satisfied?
Yet, players say this,
but media reports otherwise.
Damn F*ck.

Even 'die-hard' fans become so negative.
They are frustrated,
but aren't they 'die-hard fans'?
Saying things like terminating memebership
in front of all to see...
make the hosts feel so 'uneasy'.
This is the time to show support!!
I'm a new fan,
and I seem to know what to do better.

I may not have much right to
say who is right or wrong,
but I know I should support
the club I love.
Send me to London &
I'd love to pay to watch their matches.
Send me to the shop &
I'd probably buy till I'm broke.
I'm doing my best to watch their matches on TV,
to see their news everyday,
to make sure I'm updated.

I dunno what to say le.
Anyway someone around me has found love.
So envious, yet happy for her~!
Good luck and be happy~~!!
Love you~!

Monday, May 04, 2009

FOOTBALL!!

FOOTBALL!!

It's been so long since I blogged!
But then dun think anybody reads here anymore.
Blogging becomes irritating when you are busy,
but becomes essiential when you can't
find anyone to talk to (esp something interesting)

Anyway, just for awhile,
I dun really want to defame JCU or anything,
(my prev post was pretty negative)
Would like to apologize,
(but that doesn't take away how I feel about it).
Either way,
it's not really right for me to post such stuff, I think.
I was just too upset not to post it, haha!

Back to the headlines of today,
(man got so much stuff to say since I last blogged!)
Its someone's bdae today.
A very special someone indeed.
He kind of introduced me to the world of
FOOTBALL

Some call it soccer, but I prefer FOOTBALL.
I never really supported any 1 team,
coz I only sat there for 90mins to enjoy
in the company of my dad,
and whoever was watching the matches.
One must note:
there seems to be lesser and lesser TV programmes
esp on the weekends.
In our house,
the weekends is about football.
( Although not as much before,
but since I got hooked,
the TV is practically used for football matches
EVERY SINGLE day, even repeat matches)
My dad supports Liverpool,
my bro used to watch alot of his team ARSENAL,
but nowadays couldn't be bothered to watch.
(He found new love in his laptop)

Sometimes I find it a little annoyed that
when my dad and bro speak football terms,
I dun get anything.
Somehow, I manage to watch a few games,
really watch how the game is played,
(ball-watching, not MAN-watching,
but still do so sometimes...)
the skills, the football terms,
started to work out who is who as well.
Oh, forgot to mention,
I secretly supported Arsenal even before all this,
might be due to the fact my bro supports them too,
but I was never open with it till recently.

My dad will ask who I supported,
but I never really gave an 'Arsenal' answer,
all I said was ''depend on each match,
I don't really have 1 team etc"
Not till I got so caught up in it
that I finally was able to tell everyone:
I SUPPORT ARSENAL.
I didn't know when exactly did I snap,
but I'm sure the topic of this article helped in some way.

It was probably the Arsenal vs Man Utd match
back last year that kick started everything.
I watched that 'epic' match,
was so hyper that Arsenal had won.
Soon after, I started watching out for them,
in news, their website,
started to know who is playing where etc.
But that one person made me committed.

It's CESC FABREGAS 22nd birthday today.
Needless to say how much I like him,
not only as, well, a man,
but also as an ARSENAL player.
The moment he got the captaincy,
I was totally 'enchanted'.
I really followed their every details everyday,
Watched his interviews on utube,
watched other players' ones as well.
Then I realise,
they are, afterall human just like us.
They laugh at jokes, they make jokes,
they have fun, even on the pitch.
They are ordinary humans,
probably with 'extra-ordinary' football skills.
They are normal humans,
not as high-profile as celebrities who sing and dance,
yet every football fans 'worship' them.
It's really amazing.

Anyway Cesc's good captaincy days were short-lived
when he got injured in the Liverpool game.
He was out like forever,
before he came back with a bang.
Assists here and there, even scoring 2 goals himself.
There were some negative stuff though,
but I choose not to let that define
whether I support him or not.
He is clearly not affected by it,
so why should I?

He played part in letting me
subscribe to the Arsenal TV Online
that costs 3.99 pounds per month (about S$9),
He (or Arsenal) made me not to be lazy
to go down to buy my lunch etc.
(I used to hate going out to buy lunch/dinner,
probably due to my laziness)
When I do go down to buy something,
its 100% for the newpaper.
I would GLADLY go down and buy the newpaper myself,
even if I had nothing else to buy.
Because the first thing I will see,
is the sports section.
I would look for any Arsenal articles,
If I do, I would be happy,
if I dun, I still see the other sports news.
It sort of motivated me to go down and buy.
My parents weren't around for quite a few times
in the past months,
so I had to take care of the house and everything.

If it was the past me,
I would rather eat maggie for 3 days straight
then go down and buy food.
But now,
I'm even willingly to go all the way to J8,
just to buy KFC,
and at the same time, the newpaper.
How powerful is that?!

Recently my mum forgot to buy 1 edition of the newpaper,
I panicked, and smsed every close friends
if they had bought that edition.
(Amazingly, NONE of them do buy Newpaper,
starting to wonder if I really should
have friends who reads newspaper...haha!)
I later found it at my Aunt's place
(we happen to go there for lunch,
I did not go there to find the newpaper!)
read through it,
and luckily there wasn't anything much in it.
If not I would have asked for permission to bring home the paper.

Long post, I can keep going on forever,
but the important thing is,
Cesc keeps me up with all things Arsenal.
I did thought about what would happen if he left,
would I still be as enthusiastic?
I know the whole support thing will continue,
coz Arsenal and the EPL will never fold.
It continues every single year,
thus the excitment is always there.
Unlike when you support a singing group,
if they do not have any activities,
you tend to forget about them.
(haven't been too loyal to SJ!!)
But football never dies in Britain.
Or even in any other countries.
Sure, some players may have retired 10 years down the road,
but the clubs will still be there,
the cups still left to be won each year,
the excitment never really dies.
Not when you are an avid football fan.

I really envisage myself to continue to be a fan
in 10, 20 years, or even till I die.
I know it sounds weird coming from me,
but believe me,
it feels SOOO good when your dad asks you
football questions,
and you can give him a direct answer,
because you did your 'research'.
Its like I can speak footballing terms
anywhere, anytime with my dad.
Hey, when you have an extra topic to talk with your parents,
why wouldn't you take it?

PS: Im low on supply on EVERYTHING!
Handphone pouch (yup, my hp is NAKED.),
iPod pouch (my iPod is shedding its cover away),
even my bags are wearing out.
I keep wearing the same clothes
(no complaints here, I only chose to wear those few,
when I have a closet full of clothes),
even platform shoes.
(Both my white and black covered shoes
allows water in somewhere, no kidding.)
I need a new laptop
(my 1st laptop is lasting 4 yrs 5 months,
seems to be getting slower by 1 second everyday,
imagine that accumulated over 4 years!)
oh, this is something not high on the list YET,
but surely needed at a point of time -
someone to love, a companion.
(me getting too bold le, haha!)

Other than that,
Im pretty fine.
Cesc, Happy Birthday~~!!
I wish you help Arsenal lift MANY trophies~!
GOOD LUCK!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

You Found Me

You Found Me

New year calls for new goals.
But I haven't exactly came up with anything.
Everything is hanging.

My last semester in JCUS hang by a thread,
I haven't enrolled in any subjects
since before the exam.
Talked to the Dean,
but it takes FOREVER for a reply by Australia.
By the time they reply,
I might not even make it for the semester.
At least I got the Dean's words to lay on,
if anything goes wrong,
I'll bring out the 'Dean proof'.

So sickening lar.
Seriously regretting signing on JCUS,
just for the sake of graduating early.
What was I thinking sia?!
Finish so early also need come out work.
Brainless. Super brainless girl.
Everything about Australia just irks me now.
I had wanted to follow my parents to Melbourne nxt month,
but APPARENTLY, they wouldn't allow,
probably due to the fact that my bro will be alone at home.
But what the heck,
he is already 17+ & can take care of himself.
Nowadays they make decisions on their own lor,
not even wanting to consult their kids of ANYTHING.
'Oh! We are going to the airport now,
going to XXX, won't be back till XXXX! Take care!'
Fuck. That's not I want to hear.

They book all their flights already,
then come tell us they going.
Feb - Melbourne
April - Malaysia
WTF lor, like we invisible.

However, my dad did offer me to go to London in June,
after I grad from sickening JCUS.
As usual, there was an offer,
so he was keen to at least ask me
if I had wanted to go there ALONE.
I meant go there alone & stay at my aunt's house.
I'm still thinking about it,
but the offer expires on 2nd Feb. How?!

The other day got an 'offer' to go Brisbane
after I grad to work at Conrad Hotel.
My Uncle works there as a Chef,
he 'invited' me over to work,
and also can stay at his house.
I wasn't very keen to go there,
after the fucking experience I had during the TRM trip.
I just don't feel I can survive on my own.
(I meant survive on my own as in dealing with
all the work and stuff 'alone', as well as living 'alone',
excluding my Uncle's family)
I was initially keen to work in a Hotel,
as receptionist or something,
but that interest decreased after working in some hotels.

All my relatives were like JOing me to go Aust.,
say what go there for experience,
go le won't want to come back,
go there and settle there,
get out of Singapore etc.
I feel like if I didn't go,
I would have let them down.
I have a problem with opening up,
especially to such a new place,
mind you I have not started working FULL-TIME.
So everything is like,
an imagination.
Can say I'm not exactly prepared to OFFICIALLY
enter the work force.
Something is holding me back,
which explains why I'd rather stay at home
and rot than to go look for jobs.

It's not about the $$, nor being lazy.
I'm probably more afraid of setbacks.
I tried working,
but it didn't work out well.
I always seem to take 1 step out of my comfort zone,
then after 1 setback,
I take a whole leap back into my comfort zone.
After so much education of being open and active,
I don't think I have changed abit.
For once,
I CANNOT imagine myself going to a foreign country
and working/staying by myself.
I mean I 'LOVE' being alone,
but alone in a foreign country? - NO way.
I know I have support from relatives,
but it's different.

I understand why people go overseas for jobs,
Singapore kind of sucks,
being small and kind of compressed.
I don't mean the job opportunity sucks,
but its not as big a place as overseas.
Seriously, I have always wanted to work overseas,
like in ang mo places,
find an ang mo husband and possibly settle there.
But I'm afraid to take that step ahead.
It feels like once I step out,
I got no comfort zone to leap back into.

Maybe I shouldn't think so negatively.
Maybe there is greener grass over the wall.
Maybe I will find my lucky star abroad.
But who knows?!
I can't predict my future,
but I believe I create them, with the help of fate.
If I can convince myself to step abroad,
I'm sure the rest will come slowly.
If I can convince myself to open up,
I'm sure I'll get better luck with work & rltp.
If I can convince myself to stop worrying so much,
I might see a bright future in me~
But first I need to convince myself to
convince all these things onto myself.
I got to start somewhere right?
If I can't even take that step ahead,
I will forever be stuck in my shell.

The problem is,
when & where should I take my first step out?

Saturday, January 03, 2009

OMG

OMG

Seriously, what are the odds?!
I was listening to MUSE
'Supermassive Black Hole'
and as they are going to sing a part,
someone's MSN pop up,
and I read the nick to find out who it was.
And HELL!
As I read, the song was singing
EXACTLY what the nick wrote.

Tell me,
is that scary or what?!
Apparently that person
had THAT part of the lyrics
as her nickname.
The second I realised its the same,
I went OMG!
What are the odds right?!
Millions of songs,
even more millions of nicknames.
HAD to be at the RIGHT time also.
OMG OMG OMG!
SCARY~~!!

Oh, first significant death of the year,
John Travolta's son Jett died at the age of 16.
That's, really poor thing.
16 is an age where you go out and party,
but he had to die at such a young age.
I know John Travolta isn't my fav actor and all,
but its significant enough right?
~RIP Jett Travolta~

Anything else will be posted~
Happy 2009~
2008 past damn fast hor?